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the last one

2011-07-03T08:27:00.000-07:00

i think this is the last post for this blog cuz theres nothing more to write..
blog ni akan jd kenangan la..tp aku x delete sbb kdg2 nk jgk tgk kisah silam kt dlm ni, perangai dulu mcm mane..kn.. benda ni akan remain kt cni je..

first of all, nk btaw..this year adalah tahun paling byk dugaan dlm hidupku..
mcm2 benda jd since the first day of 2011..nk cter satu2 pon pjg..
tp aku rase harini la tahap stress aku paling tinggi..smpai aku sndr penat..
kdg2 benda yg kita ckp bkn org nk dgr pon..aku stuju sgt dgn pepatah bagai mencurah air ke daun keladi.. aku da bg mcm2 effort utk ajar, saling ingat mengingati..tapi aku kecewa sbb aku gagal..
aku gagal tnjuk jln yg sepatutnya..kdg2 sedih jgk perasaan mcm ni..br aku tau mcm mane perasaan cikgu2 bila dia ajar anak murid, tegur anak murid tp anak2 murid buat2 xtaw.. mungkin ni karma kt aku yg byk main2 kan cikgu masa skolah dulu..susah nk cr org yang btol2 fhm idop kita mcm mane..ssh sgt..sape2 yg da dpt tu, syukur la byk2.. ckp la Alhamdulillah..

dulu blog ni la tmpt aku salu nk luah perasaan, mane x puas hati, cter pasl sehari2..tp skrg x lg..aku byk g kt twitter..tp situ pon bukan tmpt luah perasaan sgt..cuma share2 je..
aku da x rajin mcm dulu nk menulis tiap2 mlm..smpai blog da jd mcm diari..
sdeh jgk sbenanye sbb ni da last post..kalo aku singgah kt blog ni pn utk tgk update dr kwn2 je..tu pn aku rase aku akan jrg buat..

skrg ayh aku kt hospital lg mcm last year..tp sakit yg lain..da sbulan lebeh kt situ..sape2 yang baca ni tlg doa2 kn jgk la supaya ayh aku cpt sembuh..sedih jgk tgk mkn x boleh, minum x boleh.. ramai2 doakan insyaAllah cepat sembuh..

keadaan2 mcm ni la aku rase aku perlukan pantai drpd segalanya..bg aku, pantai la tmpt paling tenang utk aku singgah kalo aku berjiwa kacau..angin tiup slow2, bunyi ombak, tgk garisan laut, tarik nafas dlm2..haihhh..kt kl ni kalo stress aku xtaw nk pegi mane..tmpt crowded sgt..aku rase kl bkn tmpt utk org mcm aku..kalo kerja nt aku nk kerja kt kampung halaman..mungkin lebih sesuai..insyaAllah kalo ade rezki..

kalo ade salah dan silap selama ni kt blog ni, aku mntk maaf..mungkin aku buat tu dlm keadaan x sdr..aku manusia biase je..byk silap jgk..aku harap hari esk lebih baik dari hari ini.. arini ckup stress..smpai x sempat nk pikir ape2..biase kalo stress aku akan lyn lagu metal, screamo br lega skit..tp td aku lyn pn x best..haihhhhh.. semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusanku..
berikan aku ketenangan dikala serabut..

akhir kata, aku doakan korang bahgia..selamat duni akhirat..
peace. assalamualaikum.

kaku sendiri

2011-03-21T00:44:00.000-07:00

satu perasaan yang x dpt digambrakan dlm diri aku skrg ini..
byk tekanan persekitaran ditambah lg dengan tekanan final exam..
rase diri kaku pulak..rasa nk tdo je sepjg masa..dan biarkan masa berlalu pergi mcm tu je..
aku da xtaw nk buat ape lg..aku rase ni la penantian hari yg paling mendebarkan aku..
aku harap aku mampu lalui semua ini..tlg la doakan aku supaya mampu tangani semua dugaan ini..
amin..semoga Allah makbulkan doa aku ini..insyaAllah..

hye

2011-01-09T06:24:00.000-08:00

happy 2011..semoga berbahagia..
xde pe sgt nk update ngn blog ni skrg..
xyah rajin2 sgt la nk bukak ye..

x ok!

2010-12-16T21:46:00.000-08:00

crius mood x ok!!!! tp smlm laa...arini sume da ok...
sakit hati ngn lect arab yg ckp satu benda pn aku x fhm..
accent tu masyaAllah..tlg la ejas skit..sikit pn jd la..kitorang lgsg x fhm cmner nk bwat lab..
markah pn kdekut gila babeng..bg asaimen, kitorang jwb ikot ape arahan soklan sume kn, pastu tiba2 dpt markah rendah, check blk n tny knape..dia ckp ni standard dia tanda..walaupon xde dalam soklan, tp student kne bwat jgk..wtf??? pastu suke2 hati potong markah..
haduhh..nasib baek tahap kesabaran ku tinggi..kalo x lebam biji mata kau moaz wehhh..
jap g nk blk dmansara..rndu wehh nk blk umh..da 2mggu lbeh x blk..sibuk sgt dgn bersuka smpai jd OKU.. kakak ku br pulang dr spore..dia ckp ade bli bju..ngehehehehhe..
ade terpasang niat nk pkai braces lah dkat gigi bwh sahaja..blk nk bincang ngn mama :D
jeles tgk sume org nk pakai..hahaha..

kk..bye2!

volleyball dan lutut

2010-12-12T22:16:00.000-08:00

ok..da smggu x update blog..lame jgk la KOT..
mggu ni da bebas dgn aktiviti kesukanan yang telah dilalui selama 3mggu..
2mggu tournament volley..alhamdulillah first tournament dpt no 3..scnd one dpt first place..
kire ok la :) tp skrg sy da mcm kerakyatan sri lanka..sgt hiram sbb sunburn...ssh la nk ngorat ppuan kalo cmni :P tp xpe..skejap je hitam nie..x kesah..hehe.. mcm2 pengalaman dpt bila masok mcm2 event ni..xpe la kn..sbb sy sgt2 minat ngn sukan nie..nmpk je sng..tp mmg ssh nk main btol2..kitorang training sgn coac firdaus, iaitu coach remaja kebangsaan, kapten selangor dan kapten kuala lumpur..tnx coach..segalam ilmu yg telah diberi akan ku praktikkan x kira dimana dan bila :)thank u so much..2mggu training saje buat fitness..rasenye sy da kurus kot skrg..byk buang lemak2 yg x guna..ok la sikit..hehe..
tp smlm agak sdeh la..mase tgh final and last set..sy lompat utk block spiker dr pihak lawan..bila landing, sy tersilap landing dan lutut saye twist ke kanan..sakitnye x terkira..sy hampir di bawa kehospital tp sy tolak..alasan nk tgk game smpai habis :) lps tu closing ceremony, dan bertolak balik ke bangi..dlm bas sy x dpt tido sgt sbb sakit..smpai bangi sy tido smpai la arini sy bgn da g tgk tun mahathir lecture series..jap g sy nk g hospital dlm kol 3 sbb da ramai sgt mrh sy x g cek sakit ni..kalau anda duk dkat ngn sy, anda boleh tgk lutut sy ni mmg senget ke kanan..agak style la..tp bengkak..kaki pn xleh bengkok xleh straight..kena tgh2..
harap2 japg g hosp doc ckp xde pape..jgn la smpai kena operate..aduh....
doa2 la ye :)

berpada2

2010-12-03T04:33:00.000-08:00

esk da start sukan ipts zon tgh malaysia..event dekat mmu..kol 8 pg da start acara..
aku wakil uniten utk maen volleyball..da 2mggu training..da byk nmpk improvement dgn taktikal bila main..kulit pn nmpk byk perubahan..da kelabu da ni..muke dgn jerawatnya..
xpe..ahad da abes..da boleh relax..aku x cuak pon utk game kali ni..sbb da training lame kot..insyaAllah boleh mng..so sape yg berminat nk tgk, bosan weekend xtaw nk bwat ape, dijemput la dtg ke mmu cyberjaya utk beri sokongan..jgn mls2 duk umh je kn...

mggu dpn br start g klas utk sem ni..org laen ade yg da pegi dan ade yg blum..first week xpe..ape yg diajar pn yg basic2..boleh cover lg..xdehal.. next week dgn azam bru! yeah.. 6 subjek sem ni..hrp2 mampu mkn sume subjek tu kn..thermo 2, fluid 2, machine design, modeling,thermofluid lab, agama 2...ok la kot..kalo x larat drop ah..hehe..

kawan time sng, sng dicari, kwn time ssh, ssh dicari..jd berpada2 lah ye..

aku sudah tua

2010-11-22T22:39:00.000-08:00

2 hari latihan pusat di uniten utk persediaan ke sukan ipts semalaysia..
br aku taw betapa x fit nye aku slame ni..skrg sakit2 seluruh bdn..jalan pn da terkangkang..
aduhh..seksa btol nk build up muscle ni..sblm ni asyek tido je kn..
terseksa..latihan utk 10hari..hrp2 esk dan lusa da ok..ni otot terkejut nih..
terasa mcm nk g rumah urut :P mengada pulak kn..hehe..
mungkin mggu dpn sy da jd hitam cm bangla..tggu ye..

arrived

2010-11-20T13:24:00.000-08:00

im already at uniten..but still not ready for the training..

haiyyaaaa..the official training starts on monday morning..

yea it has been so long since i wake up in the morning..

still got the same problem..hardly sleep at nite.. like now..

im alone in this house..frens gone to broga to watch the sunrise..

i refused to go there becuz im too lazy and i got no energy..

after driving for few hours and karoke for 3 hours just now..

so i need extra rest for myself..i like being alone when i got some privacy for myslef but i hate the part when i got no one to talk to.. i mean, i realise that i am lonely at certain time..

i feel like talking to someone but i got no one..so i started to imagine about the past, something that bother me all the time -.-' something that will make me feel uncomfortable and uneasy to myself..its like i am desperate looking for something which i am NOT..hurmm..well, thats life..u hv to face it even u dun want it..i really dunnoe wut i really wanted right now..

im hoping for the best of my life and ur life..

i was listening to a song -hello by lionel richie-

its quite a very nice song..jiwang skit2..tp best :) try la dgr skit..

bg org yg tgh syok2 bercintan neh..hehe..

cool

2010-11-18T23:27:00.000-08:00

cuti da nk abes..esk da blk kl..
ahad pg da check in hostel..pg dan ptg kena training..
aku akan jd hitam.. -.-' nt da x hensem..
badan mungkin akan kurus skit..so mst boleh pakai sluar lama2 yg lama x pakai yg lama duk dlm almari.. da lama aku rest sbb tgn ni.. mst berat gila bdn nt..stamina konpem da xde nih..
xpe..nt slow2 build up blk..esk blk kl drv sorg2..bapak bosan.. hrp2 x jam la ye..
arini xde plan lgsg..brehat je kt rumh kot..cuace kt luar panas gila..mungking 2,3 hari lg akan hujan lebat x brenti..pastu bnjir..tp cuaca kt kl pn x menentu..
rase cm nk g tgk harry potter tp xde teman lgsg..kwn2 kurang minat..ade yg x minat lgsg..kwn kt uniten rmai yg minat..tp tgh cuti..xde org..smlm konsert air supply, tp x pergi, da pulang blk tiket sbb xde partner nk pergi...pon xde org minat nk pergi... aku ni pelik sgt ke dr org lain? haihhhhh...
result kluar mggu dpn..grp2 stay lg kt uniten tuh..fina boleh jwb tp xtaw btol ke x..
smlm g ktn..lpak kt tc smpai kol 4 pg..blaja mkn kuaci..masih blm pandai..kena bukak satu2 -.-'
da tua2 br nk mkn kuaci..esk nk servis keter..da ckup 5ribu km..
arini mama buat sup tulang..ajak sume kwn2 mkn..saje buat lebih skit..daging byk..
jemputlah dtg kpd sape yg bce ni k..

first time

2010-11-17T04:31:00.000-08:00

td first time dlm idop lapah lembu...hehehe..
lembu tu ade benggol mcm unta..skrg nk jatuhkan lembu pon ade skill baru dan lg sng..
tghari td kluarga sy korban sekor lembu..disebabkan byk sgt lembu kne semblih arini, so kekurangan kaki dan tangan utk lapah lembu..niat di hati nk tgk je org lapah lembu tu.. skali ade sorg pakcik tu hulur pisau.. sy ckp kt dia sy x pndai. pastu dia ckp meh sy ajar..sy pon amek pisau..
siat kulit lembu dr kaki smpai la ke badan..mmg penat..tp pengalaman best! bunyi kulit kena siat tu mcm potong kertas..styleeeee..pastu lepas buang semua kulit, potong pulak peha smpai ke kaki. aku pn angkt la kaki2 tu nk letak bwh pondok..berat gila kot! tough skejap arini :P
pastu angkt daging2 bwk balik rumh..darah byk gila kt tgn,bju ngn kaki..mcm da serial killer..haha..
hanyir bauuu..mase tgh2 potong bdn lembu, tiba2 sy pening jap sbb bau darah kuat sgt..rase nk muntah..duduk bwh khemah jap brehat..pastu sambung blk..
smpai je kt umh, trus mandi, mkn nasi dagang yg sdp! pastu kwn dtg jap pastu tdo..x larat..ptg2 skit td br bgn..nyamuk kacau..
dan itulah cerita raya haji tahun ni.. :)

tengku anwar hakim

2010-11-13T08:23:00.000-08:00

is looking for a partner on 18th of november, 8.30pm..
to go to the air suply concert at sukpa, kuantan pahang..
anyone interested plz comment this.
thank u.

10 oclock

2010-11-11T13:14:00.000-08:00

it was 10oclock in the morning..still sleeping soundly on the king size bed..
fuhhh..then suddenly, i heard the " need you " song by travie mccoy deceiving my ears..
i woke up and its a call from my lab groupmate..fendi..i was a bit surprised, why on earth he is calling me at this time and for sure, on hols..i quickly pucked up the phone.. he asked me whether i already submitted my logbook for the MOM lab..i said yes.. even i submit it early just to make sure everything is settled down before my finals..but what a very shock news i get,
my logbook was missing and i got ZERO mark for the lab..
WHADDDDAAAAFFFFUUUCCKK??? this is the second time wehhh..
last time, our lab instructor misplaced my logbook ant put it into other section.. i found it myself just right on her messy table..at 11am, i staright away drove from kemaman to uniten bangi just to see her! 2 hours, i arrived at her office.. she wasnt there -.-'''''''''
so i decided to have my brunch first since my stomache singing non stop from kemaman..goshh..
forgot to mention, i went to kl accompanied by black and muiz..tnx to them for willing to teman me today..
so at 3 am, i got her fon number from my lect, and i called her..she didnt pick up the fon. then i text her..after a long waiting, she replied me..so at 3.30pm, we met at her office..she bring out a box of logbook from my section and ask me to look for it..
yeah man, i think she is totally has a motherfucker ass sucker goddamn blind eyes..
the book was just in front of her!!!! fucckkkk!! i drove all the way from kemaman..300km++ kottttt..haihhhhh..tensen aku..dia ngn innocent face, " im sorry" must be terlepas pandang or something..whadddaaaafishhhhhhh! nk buat mcm mane..xnk nye markah dpt kosong..syg kot, mmg markah tggi gila da utk lab tu..so here i am..in kl..going back to kemaman tomorrow.. got to help my mum tomorrow..she wants to activate her maxis plan internet for iphone..da sibuk berfb -.-' xpe la..lyn je org tua :P

tnx to u ranna.

nowhytwo

2010-11-10T10:37:00.000-08:00

saya semakin gemok selepas masuk universiti..
apekah sebabnye? nk kate x bersukan sy bersukan..
ke sbb mkn byk? dan sy perasan ramai yang menghadapi msalah sama..
adakah universiti ni menggemokkan..? ke universiti yg gemok?
haiiyyaaa..da naek susah pulak nk turun..skrg sy xtaw nk campak kt mane tayar spare kt perot nie..da melampau2..nk duduk cangkung pn ssh..dihalang oleh perot..dan sy jgk br sedar :P
stiap cuti sem..slame 3 taun ni, x abes2 niat..bila bukak je sem baru, aku nk kurus, aku nk tough, aku nk workout, aku nk tu aku nk ni..tp end up dgn badan makin berisi..
mknn kt rumah sdp sgt..mane boleh thn..xkn nk kurangkan mkn..jgn la cmtu..hehe.. nt perot x tahan..gastrik :P niat2 yg sewaktu dengannya " nk tdo awl start sem baru, nk naekkan pointer, nk jaga pemakanan bagi sehat skit, xnk ponteng klas, score carry marks, dan mcm2 lah "
skrg sy tgh cuak tggu result ni..xtaw la ape benda dpt nt..final haritu mcm kureng je...boleh jwb je sume tp xtaw la btol ke x..jwpn mcm da mengarut je last2..harap2 ok la..xmau la pointer terok..usaha pon da usaha..sy rase benda ni sume akan berubah dgn sndrinya? xtaw lah..hrp2 lah..org lain pointer sume cm tggi je..sy pny mcm hampeh je..malu la jgk skrg..huhu.. sbr2..

result oh result.

perubahan cuaca

2010-11-08T09:30:00.000-08:00

kl is hot and terengganu is raining all day
because of the change in weather, i got a really bad sore throat..
i couldnt even telan my airliur..sgt pedih..
this morning it became even worst..i woke up and i got fever pakej ngn sakit tekak..
x larat nk bgn..i went to the clinic and the doc gave me the antibiotic.ubat kemam..
i hope tomorrow is better than today criusly..nk mkn pon ssh..haiyyaaaa...
my lately post is all about sick..i dunnoe wut is wrong with me..tgn patah, demam la..ape laa..
ni penghapusan dosa kot..byk sgt wat dosa :P
now im at kemaman..abiskan my cuti kt cni..da lame sgt x balik :)

patah

2010-11-07T02:03:00.000-08:00

ok..aritu sy ade ltak gmbr tgn sy berbalut kn..sy da g x-ray sume..doc ckp x pth..
so slepas dkat 2bulan..smlm la..sy g cek blk tgn sbb still skt..
bila cek2, rupenye tgn sy PATAH! sy xtaw cmner la doc dkat bangi tu wat kerja..
sy terpaksa menahan sakit tgn selama hampir 2bulan sbb xtaw sakit ape..
mau aku saman doc tu..so smlm da betolkan balik tulang tu..da masukkan balik ke track asl..
semoga cepat sembuh la sbb next month ada sukan ipts da sy wakil uniten utk main..hrp2 cpt sembuh..tlg la doakan jgk ye :P

precious

2010-11-01T05:57:00.000-07:00

hello.. let me just straight to the point..hehe
i went to broga hill for the first time this morning..but wut is very special about it, i havent sleep for 48 hours and climb the hill..fuhh i bet no one ever did that in their life.. :P
so i went there with my housemates..i was so dizzy at that time..start at 5.30 am in the morning, 3cars from uniten..only took half an hour to reach there..i was very excited..
at 6 am we started our step towards the hill..sparuh jalan, i feel like wanna pengsan a bit..we didnt bring torchlight and it makes a lot tougher than i thought..i stop at my own check poitn, take a very deep breath..haha..no stamina at all..but i was not give up..still want to continue..about to reach the first puncak, i was very afraid cuz the gayat thingy..haha..tgk bawah rasa mcm nk jatuh,,luckily, my fren, alip give me the spirit to continue panjat2..comot gila kot..haha..so smpai la kt ats..fuhhh, the fresh air..i wont forget it..hehe..there were a few UM students and 2 married couples do the photoshoot up there..tiru muzappar la nie..i sit down and relax..penatttttt...br taw langit tggi ke rendah..fuhhh.. view sgt cantik, my fren afiq yg da byk kali naik, ckp, this morning was one of the most beautiful view hes ever seen..lucky me :)
my other housemate da jauh da..tggl me and afiq je..diorg da naek smpai ke btl2 puncak sana..i dont have the energy to go there..wut was really running thru my mind, why broga is the onli hill yg ada lalang cmtu?? bukit lain cm hutan yg btl2 hutan..pokok2 tinggi but broga is not like dat..hurrmmmmm??? duduk brehat kt ats batu situ..best! so sape yg x pergi lg, ptt pergi tp sediakan bekal stamina cukup2 :P bwk torchlight ye :) sunrise dia ok la..but i prefer sunset than sunrise :)

pagar dibuka

2010-10-31T05:36:00.001-07:00

yeay! final da abes..ok la sikit..xde komitmen kt study utk sbulan..
tp time nk kuar result jap g lg cuak..huhu..rase2 cm boleh la jwb..tp mmg ssh nk score A la utk stiap subjek..insyaAllah..usaha pn dh..tawakkal je..
so plan utk cuti sbulan masih xde..cume mcm nk fit kn bdn skit..da lame x bersukan sjak injured tgn tu..skrg tgk cm da 80% baik..so da boleh main da..bdn pn cm naik skit sbb mkn byk time finals..asl study je mst lapar..apekah fenomena ni?? smlm x tdo stdy MOM..mmg x sempat nk cover semua..so tggl la satu soklan td..ini diantara subjek paling ssh dlm mechi..
nk score mmg ssh la..so buat je la ape yg terbaik..boleh tahan jugak penangan subjek ni, smpai xleh tdo smlm..pening dia jgn ckp..abis xam trus pengsan..sume benda da jd slow motion..hehe..
so kepada yg masih di final exam..goodluck lah :)
dan selamat bercuti..semoga perjalanan anda ke kampung halaman semalat smpai..
SAYA RNDU NK BALIK KEMAMAN!!! X SABAR KHAMIS NI..OK.

ADIOSSSSSS

ke arah mana

2010-10-23T14:17:00.000-07:00

tadi telah disaksikan berakhirnya perhimpunan agung UMNO pada kali ini..
pelbagai hujah telah didengari sepanjang berlansungnya perhimpunan ini..
perlbagai usul,cadangan, telah dikemukakan oleh ahli parti demi memartabatkan lagi UMNO dan perpaduan kaum di Malaysia..diharap, perhimpunan kali ini dapat mengubah segala transformasi yang sedang dilakukan, supaya bangsa kita tidak bosan dengan tindakan berulang oleh ahli parti..khususnya kepada golongan muda yang sangat memerlukan sesuatu yang baru selaras dengan kemajuan yang dikecapi..kadang2, setiap kerja dan keputusan serta perbincangan perlulah juga meminta pandangan daripada golongan muda supaya ianya sesuai dengan kehendak semasa..
maklumlah orang muda sekarang ni banyak karenah.. saya doakan semoga apa yang telah saya dengari sepanjang perhimpunan ini tiak hanya menjadi hangat2 tahi ayam malahan akan sentiasa berkerja demi menjaga kebajikan rakyat..hidup melayu!

P/S= saya tidak menyokong mana2 parti..cuma sekadar mengambil tahu perkembangan semasa negara saya sendiri..at least tau la sikit ape yg berlaku :P hehe..

tiba2 pulak semangat berpolitik..sedang survey parti mana yang sesuai utk diundi..almaklumlah umur da 21, da layak mengundi..anda bagaimana? da daftar? saya belum lagi..hehe..
final exam lagi 6 hari..langsong x prepare..xtaw la kenapa sem ni rase relaks sgt..mcm xde finals..
kdg2 je dtg cuak tu..ini satu benda pelik..biase kalo nk final mesti gelabah gila babeng..mungkin esk akan start study..jadi rajin skit..kalo x ape la bekal nk bwk masuk dlm exam hall..xnk peristiwa first year degree berulang..zaman2 jahiliah >:)

sudah pukul 5.30..semoga berjaya kepada semua yg sedang menempuh finals..all the best :)

for those who are in love.

2010-10-19T23:08:00.000-07:00

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Walaupun mungkin kamu merasa berat badan kamu sudah bertambah.

Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin tahu tentang apa saja yang kamu lalui sepanjang hari ini, dia ingin tahu kegiatan kamu.

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan mengirimkan SMS seperti ’selamat pagi’, ’selamat hari minggu’,
'selamat tidur’, ‘take care’, dan lain-lain lagi.
Walaupun kamu tidak membalas SMS nya, kerana dengan kiriman SMS itu lah dia menyatakan cintanya,
Menyatakan dalam cara yang berbeza, bukan “aku CINTA padamu”, tapi berselindung ayat selain kata cinta itu.

Jika kamu menyambut hari jadi dan kamu tidak mengundangnya ke majlis yang kamu adakan, setidak-tidaknya dia akan menelefon untuk mengucapkan selamat atau mengirim SMS.

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan selalu mengingat setiap kejadian yang dia lalui bersama kamu, bahkan mungkin kejadian yang kamu sendiri sudah melupakannya, kerana saat itu ialah sesuatu yang berharga untuknya.
Dan saat itu, matanya pasti berkaca.
Kerana saat bersamamu itu tidak boleh berulang selalu.

Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu mengingati setiap kata-kata yang kamu ucapkan, bahkan mungkin kata-kata yang kamu sendiri lupa pernah mengungkapkannya.
Kerana dia menyematkan kata-katamu di hatinya, berapa banyak kata-kata penuh harapan yang kau tuturkan padanya, dan akhirnya kau musnahkan?
Pasti kau lupa, tetapi bukan orang yang mencintai kamu.

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan belajar menggemari lagu-lagu kegemaran kamu, bahkan mungkin meminjam CD milik kamu, kerana dia ingin tahu apa kegemaran kamu - kesukaan kamu kesukaannya juga.
Walaupun sukar meminati kesukaan kamu, tapi akhirnya dia berjaya.

Kalau kali terakhir kalian bertemu kamu mungkin sedang selesema, atau batuk-batuk, dia akan sentiasa mengirim SMS atau menelefon untuk bertanya keadaan kamu - kerana dia bimbangkan tentang kamu, peduli tentang kamu.

Jika kamu mengatakan akan menghadapi ujian, dia akan menanyakan bila ujian itu berlangsung, dan saat harinya tiba dia akan mengirimkan SMS ‘good luck’ untuk memberi semangat kepada kamu.

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan memberikan suatu barang miliknya yang mungkin buat kamu itu ialah sesuatu yang biasa, tetapi baginya barang itu sangat istimewa.

Orang yang mencintai kamu akan terdiam sesaat, ketika sedang bercakap di telefon dengan kamu, sehingga kamu menjadi bingung.
Sebenarnya saat itu dia merasa sangat gugup kerana kamu telah menggegarkan dunianya.

Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin berada di dekat kamu dan ingin menghabiskan hari-harinya hanya dengan kamu.

Jika suatu saat kamu harus pindah ke daerah lain, dia akan sentiasa memberikan nasihat agar kamu waspada dengan persekitaran yang boleh membawa pengaruh buruk kepada kamu.
Dan jauh dihatinya dia benar-benar takut kehilangan kamu.
Pernah dengar ‘jauh dimata, dekat dihati?’ .

Orang yang mencintai kamu bertindak lebih seperti saudara daripada seperti seorang kekasih.

Orang yang mencintai kamu sering melakukan hal-hal yang SENGAL seperti menelefon kamu 100 kali dalam masa sehari.
Atau mengejutkan kamu di tengah malam dengan mengirim SMS.
Sebenarnya ketika itu dia sedang memikirkan kamu.

Orang yang mencintai kamu kadang-kadang merindukan kamu dan melakukan hal-hal yang membuat kamu pening kepala.
Namun ketika kamu mengatakan tindakannya itu membuat kamu terganggu dia akan minta maaf dan tak akan melakukannya lagi.

Jika kamu memintanya untuk mengajarimu sesuatu maka ia akan mengajarimu dgn sabar walaupun kamu mungkin orang yang terbodoh di dunia!
Bahkan dia begitu gembira kerana dapat membantu kamu.
Dia tidak pernah mengelak dari menunaikan permintaan kamu walau sesukar mana permintaan mu.

Kalau kamu melihat handphone-nya maka nama kamu akan menghiasi sebahagian besar INBOX-nya. Dia masih menyimpan SMS-SMS dari kamu walaupun ia kamu kirim berbulan-bulan atau bertahun-tahun yang lalu.
Dia juga menyimpan surat-surat kamu di tempat khas dan segala pemberian kamu menjadi benda-benda berharga buatnya.

Dan jika kamu cuba menjauhkan diri daripadanya atau memberi reaksi menolaknya, dia akan menyedarinya dan menghilang dari kehidupan kamu, walaupun hal itu membunuh hatinya.

Jika suatu saat kamu merindukannya dan ingin memberinya kesempatan dia akan ada menunggu kamu kerana sebenarnya dia tak pernah mencari orang lain.
Dia sentiasa menunggu kamu.

Orang yang begitu mencintaimu, tidak pernah memaksa kamu memberinya sebab dan alasan, walaupun hatinya meronta ingin mengetahui, kerana dia tidak mahu kamu terbeban dengan karenahnya. saat kau pinta dia berlalu, dia pergi tanpa menyalahkan kamu, kerana dia benar-benar mengerti apa itu cinta.

“ Pernahkah sesiapa berbuat seperti di atas ini kepada kamu?
Jika ada, jangan pernah mensia-siakan orang tersebut,
Kamu akan menyesal melakukannya!

i have posted this before..but this is just for reminder.
goodluck :)

almost

2010-10-13T10:51:00.000-07:00

da nk dkat 2minggu tgn injured tp x recover lg..da terlepas 2 tournament volleyball..
da mcm org oku..nk bkk pntu keter pon ssh..haihh,.bila la nk baik..disebabkan masih sakit, tgn terpaksa dibalut lagi..supaya xleh gerak..byk tisu tgn koyak sbb tu lmbt baik..lg byk gerak lg lmbt baik.so skrg sbelah tgn je boleh pakai... -.-'

friends

2010-10-11T10:51:00.000-07:00

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
That's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah
You can count on me cause I can count on you

Wooooh, Wooooh
yeah Yeah

If tou toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song
beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will
remind you

Ohh
Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
Yeah Yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go
Never say goodbye

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Wooooh, Wooooh
you can count on me cos' I can count on you

it has been so long

2010-10-07T00:35:00.000-07:00

...........heartless... i pray in the middle of world, i pray for her prosperity, without thinking about my ownself, what is going to happen, with the fact that i have to accept, with the things i have to face, mind will never end. imagine, about something that will never exist, hoping from God, to give all we ever wanted, but never say thanks, cuz we are all enjoy.. if God give me the chance, if God give me the oppurtunity, and if its only a dream, to hold u, to kiss u i will never let u go, i will never dissapoint u, i will always be with u, the best thing we get, the best thing we feel, temporary.. missing God's greatest creation, if i can sing well, everyday,everynight,everytime, all the song will be urs, music will be ur greatest soulmate, beautiful melody, to beautiful u.. demanding without respect, begging for own good, human attitude, will never change, i noe, u will never noe, the truth, the fact, about the beautiful melody, played by my red blood, comes n goes, follow the way that has been set, by the Almighty, to it source, my heart..

i miss this.

TELL ME SOMETHING I DONT KNOW

2010-10-06T23:44:00.000-07:00

Let's play a game.
This is how it works.
Click on the comment link and write either these five

1. Your secret.
2. Things you wish you could tell to someone. (You can put their name if you want)
3. What do you feel today.
4. Anything you want to say.
5. Anything that you want to tell me.

Either these three or all three or anything you want. Anonymously, of course. Don't leave your link or name.

Post it @ this entry. I will approve it. Unless if you leave your name or anything. DON'T LEAVE YOUR NAME.

Thanks :)

hand

2010-10-05T12:09:00.000-07:00

injury at my left fist..damn its hurt..for now, i cant move my anak jari too much..
thank god xde fracture mane2..cume tisu2 koyak dan urat, sendi x btol..sakit kot..
so i hv to balut my hand with bandage till it recover 100%..but im too lazy to do it everytime after shower..so kkadang2 je la.. :)
btw its getting better..no worries :)
sume org tny how did this happened.i really dun noe how to tell u guys..
to make it easy, it was bcuz of punching..hehe..i told my frens at college that i fell from a slippery place..i lied :P sorry guys..hehe..im bad at making up story.. which means im a good guy? haha..
so i hope it will recover soon cuz i got volleyball tournament this week..haiiyyaaa..
finals are just around the corner and i havent prepared yet..still got TOM project to be done by this week..aiyyaaarkk..insyaAllah bleh siap..fluid test this friday.. gonna start menelaah buku tomorrow lah..today is sleeping day.. :P thats all for now..will update soon..
XOXO

the only thing that i can do is watching u from far away..
everytime i talk to u, my mind doesnt support me..so im out of idea..
yeah still cant move on..idk why..wut is wrong with me..people so easily moved on, its just me..
cant accept the truth that it is a bullshit for me to have her..still find a way to my destiny..
life is really short...so make it worth it..maybe we are at the end of the world, maybe we r not..
i wish i could hold u..wish and wish and wish..eventually its gone..but criusly..
ure still the one.

i-city

2010-09-30T13:14:00.000-07:00

is a great place..even better for couples..not very suitable for singlesssss..
best spot is infront of the big TV.

fav all time

2010-09-27T12:00:00.000-07:00

yeah! my fav all time tv shows has come back! HIMYM season 6 yawww...
br dpt tgk td..syok gilaaa..stelah sekian lama x lepak ngn marshall eriksen, lili, barney stinson, ted mosby and robin sche*&*^..i dunno how to spell..hehe..i hope ted will get married in this season.. fuh da penat nk tgk which one is going to be her wife..tgk la series ni..recommended.. best gila kot!

yaaahhooooooo!!

2010-09-22T10:24:00.000-07:00

i got readers? HAHAHAHAHA!! i would never know that i got few readers here..
wow :p after placing the feedjit thingy on the right side of this blog, now i noe i still got u guys..hehe..why u guys stil keep reading this lame old rubbish blog? theres nothing much here..
i was surprised juz now..aha.. but wutever it is, u are very welcome to visit this page :)
i appreciate it..now my mood to update this thing has increase..

a month away from finals..still havent done any preparation..
im cool :)

takecare guys...
btw happy bday nadia bt rustham :)
(if u read this) hehe..special wish from me..hehe..

shikabumm

2010-09-21T11:32:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raya to all..still syawal so still can wish..hehe..
for the first time raya kt kl this year..who said there will be less human in kl during hari raya??
u guys are big liar! ramai je kot -.-' igtkn x jam tp boleh thn la..
so first day raya got nothing to do..sleep for the whole day..yeah..nice one 2010..
scnd day raya, nasi dagang! my mom buat sndr..sdakkk..ade tetamu..kenal kenalan..dtg mkn kt umh..
raya ke 3 pulang ke kg halaman SEHARI..xtualy 3hari 2mlm but consider as one day only lah..2days of trip..
x puas..kjap sgt..nothing much for this raya..duit raya pon sikit..
skrg klas da start balik..da mula bz ngn projek ngn asaimen..biasa la..sbulan sblm final..hehe
mood happy je currently..my dad is getting better day by day..tnx guys sudi mendoakan ayahnda cpt sembuh :)
nt dpt balasan dr tuhan ye :) da xtaw nk cter ape ni cuz theres nothing interesting here..hehe..
i hope u guys are doin great..(da xde idea)..hehe..
bye

eminem

2010-09-01T13:20:00.000-07:00

hye..lame gila x update blog..mungkin sbb da xtaw nk ckp ape..
xde pape lg nk di ceritakan..xde pape lg nk diberitahu..
sbb skrg cm hanye mampu melihat je sume benda yg terjadi..
byk benda yg berlaku tp x mampu nk diberitahu..
ntah la..di bulan ramadhan ni byk2 la bersabor...
aku hanye ikot flow je..ape yg jd skrg..da mls nk pikir benda2 ngarut yg serabutkan kepala otak..
hari2 aku tgk benda same berlaku..dan benda sama jugak aku buat..

td dpt markah sume subjek test 1..ok lah..padan la dgn jumlah masa aku stdy..
ok la tuh..mls nk score lebeh2..japg ak lg mls nk stdy :P
raya pon da dekat..aku rase cm da x update blog smpai raya..so aku ucap skrg lah ye..
selamat hari raya..ampun maaf dipinta kepada semua pembaca dari hujung rambut smpai hujung kaki..kalo ade salah dan silap dr mulut atau tingkah laku aku ni..samada secara sedar ataupun tidak..semoga perjalanan anda semua selamat sampai ke kg halaman..
aku raya kt kl je taun nie..ayh aku masih lg tidak sihat sepenuhnya..so taun ni first time aku raya kt kl..xtaw la cm mane perasaan dia..aku terima dgn redha je sume yg berlaku ats dunia ni..sume kehendak tuhan..sape la kite nk menafikan segala takdirNya? jemput dtg la raye kt umh..

k la kwn2..sahur pulak..
semoga bahagia selalu..
da ponteng puasa tu pandai2 la ganti k..
ciao.

the wind blows :)

2010-08-11T02:25:00.000-07:00

Ive got to breathe
You cant that from me
Cause its all that you left thats mine
You had to leave
And thats all I can see
But you told me your love was blind

There are times
Youre so impossible that I should sign a waiver
And you will find
Someone worth walking on when you ask me to go

Ill leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and there it goes
Ill be outside of your window
Ill pass by but Ill go slow
Ill leave when the wind blows

There was a day
You threw our love away
Then you passed it to someone new
You wanna stay
But since you wanna play
We can finally say were through

There are times youre so impossible and you ask me to go

Ill leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and there it goes
Ill be outside of your window
Ill pass by but Ill go slow
Ill leave when the wind blows

You can scream theres just echoes
Pass outside of your window
Youll be sad that you let me go
Ill leave but just know

As I lay in solitude
Oh Whats a boy supposed to do
I Shake the very thought of you
Me together, I remember
Late nights when I stayed up late
All I do is wait and wait
Your never coming home to me
Thats the hardest thing to see

I got to breathe
You cant take that from
We can finally say were through

Ill leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and there it goes
Ill be outside of your window
Ill pass by but Ill go slow
Ill leave when the wind blows

You can scream theres just echoes
Pass outside of your window
Youll be sad that you let me go
On every face youll ever know
And everywhere you ever go
Youll feel when the wind blows......

:) :)

bosan

2010-08-08T00:24:00.000-07:00

2010 tahun paling bosan..
xde hale tuju..xde perubahan.makin mundur..
sume negatif..hancur.bodoh..

does exists

2010-07-27T09:00:00.000-07:00

yeah..karma does exist..and it really affect me this time..
this is the second time..and i really hope there will be no more next time..
plz dont ask me whether i m ok or not cuz the answer will defenitely a NO NO!
i try to accept and admit it..im trying..
so many things in my mind currently..
im aware of it but still wanna deal with it..
i should back off at the first place..
i thought i can handle it but i was wrong..for how many times i myslef not sure..
i need something to cheer me up..something extra ordinary..

the story

2010-07-18T04:13:00.000-07:00

the story keep repeating itself again again and again..
har har..so funny~ -.-'
ive been cursed??
MAYBE..........

beautiful eyes

2010-07-14T11:28:00.000-07:00

yea there is this one girl ive been watching over a year.
no im not stalking her..i just like to watch her..
got a very beautiful brown eyes with a very nice eyebrow..
a smile that can make a guy static for a while..a pony tail hair moved right to left while she was walking..i can say that she's a dream girl for some guy..
she's not that hot, that vouge..she's not with makeup..
but it is enuf for her to be like that..
i wish i can get to noe her..
so this is my wishlist for this semester instead of getting higher results :P
insyaAllah :)

sungguh ku tiada lg dalam kamus idopmu

2010-07-07T04:45:00.000-07:00

dulu kita pernah kawan..kita pernah baik..kita semua pernah rapat..
salu jugak keluar sama2..borak2..suka2..duka2..dan mcm2 lagi..
tp sekarang semua dh ilang..xde lg dh borak2..keluar pon dh x..tego pon da x jwb..
xkesah la..da org da xnk kwn..buatpe nk terhegeh2..
smpai cni je la kawan..jgn cr aku time korang susah nt k..

from the bottom

2010-07-01T11:30:00.000-07:00

dh 3 hari aku x tdo..kepala pening bagai nk gila..
tp demi jaga ayah tercinta, aku sanggup..xkesah la..pening skejap je..
arini ayh aku operate for the scnd time..kali ni tebuk tekak dia..sbb nk bg lubang pernafasan..
sblm ni dia ade difficulty in breathing smpai nk jln pon x larat..
mama aku menangis tgk ayah aku kuar dr operation theatre td..
sbb byk sgt wayar2 dkat tekak ayh aku..terpaksa memakai oksigen utk bernafas..aku pun turut sedih..tp mama tetap tabah tgk ayah mcm tu..mlm ni aku x tido lg sbb tggu ayh aku..
mama pun tggu same tp aku tau mama sgt penat dan terlampau byk berfikir.aku suruh mama tido..aku x tido pon xpe la..aku kesian kt mama..mkn pon da kurang..dia sdeh tgk keadaan ayh aku..aku harap da tebuk tekak ni, ayh aku dpt bernafas seperti biasa semula..dan boleh bergerak kesana kemari seperti biasa..tp memakan masa jgk lah utk baik kn..tekak da berlubang..aku pon xtaw nk pikir ape..aku da nk start klas..sape nk bwk ayh aku pegi hospital lps ni..mama aku x pandai drive di kl..kakak2 aku semuanya kerja..adik aku bz dgn xam..haih..pening btol la kepala..ikotkan hati, nk je aku extend sem utk jaga ayh aku..tp mama and ayh kata jgn..mst ada cara lain..nk pakai driver, keluarga kitorang x sekaya itu..ya Allah..tlg lah..aku buntu..aku harap ade penyelesaian..permudahkan lah urusan kami ya Allah..dengan rahmat dan kasih sayangMu..
semoga ayahku cepat sembuh..
nyte

too much to say

2010-06-28T14:05:00.000-07:00

yea..second day i watched movie alone..
kinda interesting.. :)
she's out of my league and knight and day..
both r very good movie..worth to watch it..

my dad is really2 not feeling well..
cant talk, cant walk much, hardly to breath..
sgt merisaukan keluarga saya..i have to be at home like all the time
to take care of him..from the bottom of my heart, i couldnt stand to see him like this..
i miss the old him..damn much..a very active dad..but now he just sit on a chair and cant move alot..God plz help him..cure him..hanya kekuasaanMU dan hanya dengan izinMU dapat menyembuhkan sakitnya ya Allah..to anybody who read this entry, tolonglah doa2kan jgk ye..
semoga beliau cepat sembuh..semoga beliau kembali seperti sedia kala.. i really hope that to happen.. i usually dont sleep at night..just to make sure nothing will happen to him..
tp terpaksa mendengar betapa susahnya beliau menarik nafas.. T_T
sgt menyedihkan..tp terpaksa bersabar..dugaan semua ni dari tuhan..

same2 la tolong doakan ye..

kau org memang pukimak

2010-06-27T10:01:00.000-07:00

suke ati aku la nk single ke ape ke..
nk tgk wayang sorang2 ke..mkn sorang2 ke..
ade aku sshkn idop korang? ade aku mntk duit ngn korang?
sibuk sgt pasl idop aku pastu mula la ckp aku memilih la, high taste la,
sbb tu la aku xde awek?? puas ati la buat andaian sendiri?
sorry kalo entry kali ni mmg agak keras dan kasar sbb arini saje da berkali2
aku kena ayat "ELEH AWK TU YG MEMILIH SGT!"
pukimak kau aku memilih..da mmg aku xnk buat ape aku nk pilih???
korang nk ke dgn org yg korang xnk? x kn??
abestu sng ckp org memilih? xleh pikir ke ape?
mmg aku ckup bengang arini..sudahla nk mengata org...
ko x knl aku ko xtaw laa...ko x duduk kt tmpt aku ko xtaw la...
aku bg sehari je jd diri aku ni..nk???
ckp sng laaaa...haihhhhh...

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tnx to all

2010-06-08T13:43:00.001-07:00

2hari aku di kuantan specialist center..masuk wad sbb gastrik..
aku kurang mkn sbb lebih tido..sakit tu mmg sakit sgt la..nk nafas pon ssh bila angin da masuk penuh dlm perot..bila angin da masuk kepala mmg pening gila lah..
aku pon tdo je..tp waktu mlm xleh tdo so aku kcau nurse2 kt ctu..
tp aku terharu gila..ramai kwn2 yg bertanya khabar..yg doakan aku supaya cepat sembuh..
dan x kurang yg mrh aku sbb x btaw..xkn nk btaw kot masok hosp..tbe2 kn..nt ckp aku attention seeker lak..huhu..yg dtg melawat tu ssh2 je..yg bg bunga pon ssh2 je..tnx lah!
i really appreciate every single thing of it :)
skrg aku dlm proses pemulihan..x fully recover lg..mkn pon masih xde selera..rasa semua mknan pon same je..dlm pipi ade mata ikan.sbb aku kurang minum air..
adakah aku jd begini sbb wayfarer aku ilang? sama2 kita renungkan..aku pon da mls nk pikir..tgh kumpul duit nk bli baru..mahal la pulak benda tu..jual la 2inggit ke..boleh la bli hari2..
tp xpela..benda da nk jd..sdeh tu mmg la sdeh..tp xdpt pape gak kn..jap lg tghari aku akan ke KL..sbb ayah aku masuk wad dkat sjmc..sakit dalaman tekak..dengar cternye ade ketumbuhan kecil pada peti suara..kawan2 sama2 lah tolong doakan supaya ayah aku cpt sembuh sperti sedia kala..k la..hari da nk pg..aku perlukan tidur yg ckup utk drv jap g.
nyte.

i wont see u tonight

2010-06-05T14:18:00.001-07:00

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

warmness on the soul

2010-06-05T09:12:00.000-07:00

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide. NO

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

malang berterusan

2010-06-03T05:40:00.000-07:00

ape punye malang la nasib aku taun ni..mcm2 benda bodoh terjadi..
aku pon da x phm la..br 3jam lepas shades aku yg br pakai staun hilang..
xtaw jatuh kt mane..dh la antara benda paling aku syg..mane2 aku pergi mst bwk..
da ilang...sdeh tuhan je tau..nk kumpul duit bli benda tu, x mkn la aku..
da la limited edition..da xde keluaran tu..haihhhhh..malang mmg malang..ape silap aku pon aku xtaw..&*))*(&$##%&^(()_^%!!!!!!!! bengangnye lah aku..mmg da abis sbr dh ni..smpai x terkate pape..haihhhhhhhhhhhh...

you

2010-05-26T13:27:00.000-07:00

you,
always with me no matter in good or bad situation.
you,
always cheer me up when im not in a good mood.
you,
always give me good motivation.
you,
got the same prob as me..hardly to sleep at night.
you,
a really2 good fren. :)
you,
always make a choc cake for me. yum2 :)
you,
a fren that i can count on :P
you,
always talk crap but that is one of the reason why i like to talk to u :P
you,
are so nice and pretty :PP
you,
are my doctor love..hahah

like many said..
"a fren in need is a fren indeed.."
"frenship is the biggest ship in the world"

but how many of u really appreciate their frens..??
i got this one fren..
and i thank god for giving me the opputurnity to noe her..
she is so kind hearted..

-terpaksa buat-
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

candat sotong dan langsuir

2010-05-19T10:47:00.000-07:00

pada mlm br2 ni..setelah pulang dr melepak di kdai mamak cempaka berhampiran kawasan perumahan aku..dlm perjalanan, tiba2 kawasan perumahan aku blackout..mmg amat gelaplah..naseb baek moto ade lampu..mase tu hujan renyai2..aku pon nk masok rumah..tp x boleh..sbb pagar letrik..xde letrik kn..aku pon panjat la pagar rumah aku tu..masok dlm pagar, aku pon bkk pntu rumah, adikku dan kwn ku sedang menunggu di luar pagar utk aku mengambil kunci dan membuka pagar belakang..pstu sume da setel..kwanku yg merupakan jiranku juga menelefon utk dtg lepak di rumah ku ketika itu..diorg dtg la bertiga..pastu lepak la dalam rumah..aku menelefon TNB..diorg ckp sedang membaiki kerosakan yg berlaku..aku pon tggu laa..pastu dlm rumah pon panas..kt luar masih hujan lg..kitorang pon bercadang la nk lepak luar rumah..sbb panas..kitorang pon kluar..lepak kt luar..borak2 pasl mcm2 benda..maen torchlight..pastu tiba2..kitorang dgr satu jeritan perempuan yg sedang sakit..AMAT KUAT SKALI!!!!
ktorang pon lari laaa..masuk dlm rumah..bunyi mmg takot la dalam keadaan gelap mcm tu..pastu disambung dengan bunyi anjing menyalak!! berlawan dengan suara perempuan td..kitorang pon kluar blk dr rumah utk tgk ape benda..pastu bunyi suara td sudah tidak menjerit lg..malahan tergelak2..bunyi anjing sudah tidak kedengaran..tiba2 seorang kwnku yg bernama black menyuluh kearah sekolah dihadapan rumahku..tidak smpai 20meter.. dia menjerit apabila ternampak langsuit sedang berdiri di atas atap susur gajah sekolah tersebut..litorang pon bertempiaran la lari...takot wehhh..gelap mcm tu..bunyi gelak daripada hantu tersebut hilang begitu sahaja..kitorang ketakutan dlm rumah..pastu disusuli bunyi2 pelek dlm kawasan rumah ku..waktu itu pkul 3.30 pg sehingga 5 pg..pastu letrik kembali pulih..kwn2 ku semua tidur kt rumahku..pkul 7 pg..

kemudian setelah tidur selama beberapa jam..kol 12 tgahari aku bgn utk bersiap sedia ke marang terengganu utk program mencandat sotong bersama kwn2..bertolak pkul 2 lbeh ptg..dan menaiki bot pada pkul 4.30..kitorang mencandat sotong di kawasan belakang PULAU KAPAS..kira tgh laut jgk la..sesampai di kawasan yg dituju..kitorang menurunkan joran masing2..dan memulakan aktiviti..seramai 8org menyertai aktiviti ini..kitorang candat selama 8jam dan dpt 20kilogram sotong..malangnye..ini adalah kali pertama aku ke tgh laut..aku hanya mampu dpt 3 ekor sotong dan lemudian terlantar kerana mabuk laut..ombak kuat sgt..org lain steady je..hehehehe..gmbr2 boleh dilihat di fb..ada satu je..yg lain mls nk upload..nk tgk meh amek enset aku nie..ada 2,3 keping..pastu da mabuk x sempat amek gmbr..kol 2pg smpai di jeti marang..pastu angkt2 sume brg..kol 3 bertolak ke kemaman..berhenti makan di paka terengganu..kerana kelaparan setelah muntah 2kali..hehehe..pastu smpai rumah kol 6 pg..trus tdo..esk bgn da ok :)))))

sekian cerita mggu ini..heheh

meremangg

2010-05-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

smlm..sy dan kwn pergi bersukan..pkul 10mmlm..
lpas abis bersukan tu kitorang nk blk awl..pastu sorg lg kwn pon nk blk jgk..
kitorang tny la knape..dia ckp tkot..sbb kt tmpt kitorang bersukan tu pernah kne usik ngn hantu..
pastu kwn sy pon ckp la...jgn moto mati sudah time lalu dpn kubur nanti..kitorang pon start moto dan balik..smpai je dpn pntu kubur, motor betol2 mati laaaaaaa......kitorang pon ape lg..turun moto, tolak motor sambil lari..perghhhh..br ckp td, skrg da kne..x smpai 5minit kot..tgk jam, tepat kol 12 tgh mlm..hahahahahhaha..perasaan takot bertukar menjadi ketawa..last2 motor dpt start bila da smpai dpn kdai mkn..fuhhh..lega...tp pengalaman ni mmg agak seram la...
jd, jagalah mulut anda..

7 stars

2010-05-08T13:11:00.000-07:00

hey guys..long time no update..
i dont feel like writing currently..but to fullfill my bored time..
i have to do this..its 4am in the morning..sunday morning..
just finished watching how i met ur mother season 5 episode 18..
i adore this tv shows cuz it tells u how to get a girl..i mean 'the one' a.k.a ur true love..
it is very interesting. and i like the sense of humor they put in this series..tgk jgn x tgk! :P
went to pulau perhentian last week..it was AWESOME! u guys should go there..criusly..
a lot of pictures taken..u can view it in my fb acc..lazy to upload it here..
nothing much lately..juz doing the usual thing that i used to do..
tdo mkn kluar lepak bersukan..
the weather is getting hotter and hotter by day.. mom couldnt stand the temperature and decided to stay in kl..been here for only two days..haha..ure funny mama..
so today is the mother's day! so happy mother's day to all mums in the world!
have a great time! especially to my mum..i love u so much..ure evrything..
although sometimes u berleter x igt dunia..haha..but thats mum aite? dads not going to berleter like mum :) its gonna be so weird and theres gonna be something wrong with ur dad..hahaha..
this year i dont give present to my mum cuz she's far away from me.. :P like 300km away..haha..
last year i gave her chocolates and flowers..and she was very happy..i dont wish to my mum yet cuz she must be sleeping at this time..dont want to disturb her :) GOOD SON aite? haha..
currently im listening to old love song by eric clapton..wonderful tonite..i juz love the melody..hehe..a very simple song..but got huge fan..try lah dgr :)
about money, im not i a rich condition..u noe, stay alone here..got no salary..always go here n there..perabis duit je keje..aduhh..im a bit broke..haha..but im happy with my life..byk duit byk blanje byk berjalan..nk try duduk rumah lak..kuar kjap2.. :)
i think thats all for now..have a gud day..always takecare..and bersyukur with wut u have.. :)
adios amigos :)

loket emas

2010-04-28T06:22:00.000-07:00

PERHATIAN..
SAYA XDA AYAT MANIS..
SAYA TAKOT NK USHA PPUAN..
SY X PANDAI LYN PPUAN..
PDAHAL SY SENTIASA BG YG TERBAIK..
SBB TU SY XDE SAPE2
HMMM...SENYUM :)

kawan

2010-04-16T14:31:00.001-07:00

orang tua2 kata..kawan biar beribu..jgn cr musuh..buat baik berpada2..
sume ni betol lah! huhu..pandai la orang tua2..
so kepada orang yg da mcm xnk berkawan..saya terima seadanya..
mintak maaf awl2 kalo ada salah dan silap :)

kambing

2010-04-11T00:53:00.000-07:00

I
AM
TOTALLY
WEIRD

I
HOPE
U
UNDERSTAND

LIFE
IS
AINT
EASY
FOR
ME

BUT
IM
GLAD
TO
BE
LIKE
THIS
SYUKUR.

sayonara

2010-04-03T08:21:00.000-07:00

seorang kawanku, perempuan..bernama anis jamaludin..
pdahal nama sebnar kharunnisa..mane dtg anis pn xtaw..
salu cter x abis..hehe..pertemuan pertama kt pizza kemaman..
x pnh knl pon sblm tu..knl dlm 3taun lps..dia bekas peminat keluang man.
skrg xtaw la minat ke x..haha..mula2 sy curi soup dia..sbb dia x mkn..sape suh..
pastu makin lama makin rapat la..sbg KWN..jgn pikir bkn2..
dia kwn yg baek..happy go lucky..kdg2 mlm sy bosan, sy akan kol dia sbb sy taw dia mcm sy, x tdo mlm..haha..kami pon biasanya bergosip je..mcm2 cter la..maklumlah sy hampir nk jd org KL skrg..hahaha..tp sy taw, dia mst bangga kwn ngn sy sbb saya kn encemm.. :P
ni update ni khas utk dia la..ats demand dia HAR HAR! :ppp
anis jaga diri elok2 lah kt sane..jgn nakal2..byk dh pesan rasa..hahaha..
mls dh nk pesan skali g..mls nk taip :P
k la..takecare..SAYONARA....!!!! :D

life is really complicated..we always have to find the way to make it simple and easy for us..
always be patient to wut will come in front of us..we all can face it very well..try to learn from every mistakes..
let the complicated turns to easy way..theres always a path to it..search it :)

first

2010-03-24T12:55:00.000-07:00

kwn2 skalian..saye ade soalan..
apekah FIRST IMPRESSION anda apabila mula2 tgk sy?
mula2 knl sy?
cuz i got same answer 4 out of 4..WTH!
WUT IS SO NOT NICE ABOUT ME???
TELL ME PLZ..IM GETTING SICK OF IT..
AKU PON XTAW LA MANE SILAP..
ARINI OK..ESK DA X OK..THAFFFFAAAKKKK???
DAMN.

cerita seorang orang

2010-03-18T11:21:00.000-07:00

kau cantik berbaju biru..
kau putih dan sgt gebu..
tp hati busuk mcm budu..

x kusangka kau hipokrit..
hati keras mcm konkrit..
nmpk lembut mcm boleh split..

kau tipu ramai lelaki..
hebat mcm jokey..
gaya mcm anak tan sri..
muka mcm tudung saji..

kau x knl ape itu karma..
sbb kau bz nk dpt nama..
kau rasa kau cun mcm putri diana
tp rupa2nya mcm popia..

bukan nk menghina tapi nyata..
mulut x boleh tutp bila berkata..
hati pon ada mata..
kalau tgk sebetol2nya..

aku buat ni suka2..
jgn la pulak kau terasa..
boleh lah balik cermin muka..
smpai sakit mata..
HAHAHAHAHA!!

hehehehehhehehhhehe >:)

serabut

2010-03-12T06:47:00.000-08:00

lateky kepala makin serabut..mcm2 benda yg difikirkan..
akhir sekali dpt konklusi yg kebanyakannya nasib sentiasa x menyebelahi aku..
aku pn xtaw ape yg nasib jelez sgt ngn aku..
ape yg aku impikan x pernah terjadi..x pernah berhasil..
aku cuba jgk la mencari penyelesaian dia..
tp x dpt2..kdg2 aku sdeh jgk kn..tgk org laen, ape yg diimpikan dpt je..
best je..bahagia je..hurmm..adakah kerana aku kurang bersyukur?
x jgk..mcm mane la nk mengubah ni semua..aku da bosan cmni..
benda same je jd..mcm da taw je ape jd..da naek fed up pon..
mcm mana la nk cr konklusi kepada konklusi..
ada idea?

liar

2010-03-03T10:41:00.000-08:00

ok..i told some of my frens that im ok rite now.
theres like nothing happened to me lately..
ok im tired already..i lied to u and also to myself..
i cant help myself to forget evrthing..
im not that superhuman to feel like im in heaven..
which means im really ok with myself..
i tought, with making my ownself happy, cheer and all that
will help me to throw away the sweet n bitter memory from my mind..
i was wrong..im not that strong..
yes i still like her..still can feel the moment we were together..
how to let it fade away? how?
im getting sick of it..it troubles me a lot..
i cant focus studying for my exams..
im always keep thinking about it days by days..
fuck lahhh..i dont want all this..criusly..
dia da xde pon dlm idop aku..
yes men are fragile..
nmpk kuat tp when it comes to heart..
we r not that kuat la..we r fragile..
easy to break.once broken condsidered sold..
i want o forget all this..plz..

wish and wish

2010-03-01T08:58:00.000-08:00

i wish i could see ur face again..
i wish i could hear u giggle again..
i wish i could see ur smile again..
i wish i could hold ur hands again
i wish i could be with u again..
i wish i could make u laugh again..

i miss ur smile damn much..
but i miss mine even more..
hurmm..

keretapi

2010-02-25T09:20:00.000-08:00

mls gila nk study..exam ahad ni..2chapter..
xde mud lgsg nk std..haihhh..
pikir ape pn xtaw la...dtg la mood..tlg la..nk score nih...
semakin hari semakin bosan di uniten..
semakin xde pape utk dibuat..
hari2 rutin same..
nk keluar pon mls.xtaw nk pegi mana..da 3taun lepak tmpt sama..
btw, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT MAULIDUR RASUL KEPADA SEMUA UMAT ISLAM..
k la..nk ce mood jap
toodles~

weather

2010-02-23T09:10:00.000-08:00

cuaca sgt panas skrg..ramai yg telah demam, batuk dan selsema pada waktu yang sama..
mana yg belum sakit lg tu..
sila la minum air byk2.utk mengelakkan drp demam dan sebagainya..
jg keluar rumah time panas2..lepak dlm bilik je..tgk tv ke..
malaysia mengalami ELNINO skrgg ni..
usim kemarau yg xtaw smpai bila..mungkin sampai manusia sedar yang telah banyak dosa2 besar yg dilakukan di atas muka bumi..bumi pon marah dengan kelakuan kita..
jadi kwn2..saya berpesan lg..banyak2kan minum air mineral untuk mengelakkan anda daripada dehydrate di musim summer ini.. :)

jahit mulut

2010-02-22T08:05:00.000-08:00

i dont know wut to say..i dont noe how to start..
im lost..i dont noe where did i do wrong..
im speechless..its nothing..gone..in a blink of eyes..
no sign..at least tell me something..i just need to noe..
why?? hurmm..its hurt..yess..a lot..
the more i want to get rid of this, the more it comes back to me..
keep running in my mind..stop it pls..
im tired already..im tired thinking about it..
i feel like throwing it away..but i dont noe how to..
teach me plz..fuck..thats all i can say..some people said,
u heart is no good enuf untill it has been broken for 10 times..
fuck that..i need something to cheer me up..criusly..damn..
im getting sick of this situation..im hoping that this is just a nightmare..
a very long nightmare..wake up hakim..plz..
u need a new life..
u need fresh oxygen..
u have to walk, run etc etc.
stop dreaming about something that will never happen..
face the reality, face the fact..that she's not with u..
u r nothing to her..forget about her..plz..
sume benda ni bodoh je..BODOH!
aku benci!!! t(-,-t)

tolong btaw sket!

2010-02-17T22:50:00.000-08:00

aku bgn tdo td..tiba2 sedar2 bibir aku bengkak -.-'
mane dtg la bengkak ni!!! sape cium mulut aku time aku tdo???
btaw cpt!!! x snonoh! nk cium tggu la aku bgn dulu..haihhhh..
br boleh nk cium puas2...atau ini angkara nyamuk derhaka?
letih2 aku ternak, mkn tuan lak..gigit tuan sndr...jage la ye..aku akan buat sistem penghapusan ternakan nyamuk...grrrr -.-'

hey..read this..

2010-02-11T01:20:00.000-08:00

Could this be the end?
Is this the way I die?
Sitting here alone?
No one by my side

I don't understand
I don't feel that I deserve this
What did I do wrong?
I just don't understand

Give me one more chance
Let me please explain
It's all been circumstance
I'll tell you once again

You took me for a ride
Promising a vast adventure
Next thing that I know
I'm frightened for my life

Now wait a minute, man
That's not how it is
You must be confused
That isn't who I am

Please don't be afraid
I would never try to hurt you
This is how we live
Strange although it seems
Please try to forgive

The chapel and the saint
The soldiers in the wine
The fables and the tales
All handed down through time

Of course you're free to go
Go and tell the world my story
Tell them about my brother
Tell them about me
The Count of Tuscany

virus VS antibodi

2010-02-09T08:12:00.000-08:00

baru2 ni saya telah dimasukkan ke dalam hospital akibat sakit perot melampau..
kejadian ini berlaku disebabkan oleh food poisoning yg mmg sakit..smpai skrg pon skt lg..hurmmmmmm...bler la nk baek...

a tree

2010-02-04T10:43:00.000-08:00

to feel u warm in my arm,
is a miracle..
to hold ur lovely hand everytime,
is a magic..
we are disordered..

i called u oxygen..
i called u candy..
i called u honey..i gave u all the sweet names..
but u gave me bitter taste..
u replied me a nightmare..
u gave me the carbon dioxide..

u were a perfect string to me..
to create a perfect melody in the evening..
but now ure snaped..
and ive lost the perfect sound..
no more melody to hear..

u wont come back..
u lied to me..
u treated me as im the one..
till i drowned by ur sweetness..
as im in the world of candy..

i was wrong..
u stole my blood..
including my heart..
im pale..like the vampire craving for blood..
do i deserve all this?

why dun u answer me?
why dun u gv me any explanation?
or cuz u think im invisible to u?
or im just a place for u to release ur love?
hey! its hurting me..
its killing me!

u dont feel me..
u will never..
ever..

takecare..
so long beautiful..
till we meet again..

pergi

2010-02-03T07:47:00.000-08:00

mmg sdeh apabila salah seorang kw rapat kita pergi meninggalkan kita..
lagi sedih apabila br smlm bertemunya, arini dia da xde kt dunie..
itulah yg aku lalui sekarang..hari2 sepanjang cuti dia dtg teman aku kt umh sbb aku duk sorg2..
tp smlm dia da meninggalkan aku dan rakan2 lain untuk pulang ke rahmatullah.
Zamiran Hakim bin Osman..itulah namanya..
aku agak sedih di atas pemergiannya..smggu sebelum arwah pergi,
arwah byk meluangkan masa bersama aku..mkn sama2, lepak sama2, tgk utube sama2,
on9 sama2..tgk cter antu sama2..smpai lah subuh..smpai la aku tertidur..
arwah seorang yang sgt ringan tulang..x pernah merungut kalau disuruh buat apa2..
tidak mengata orang dan seorang yg pemalu..tp tuhan lebih syg kn dia..
aku hanya mampu sedekah kan bacaan yasin utk arwah, dan mendoakan arwah supaya sentiasa dicucuri rahmat oleh Allah S.W.T..melihat tubuhnya terkujur di depan mata amatlah sesuatu yg sukar utk dipercayai..terasa seperti ingin menyuruhnya bangun utk bersama kami semula seperti biasa..tp kita manusia biasa..tidak mampu tuk melakukan apa2 kerana setiap makhluk yg idop pasti akan menemui ajalnya..semua itu telah ditetapkan kepada kita.. kita hanya mampu redha dgn segala ketentuan tuhan..kerana kita hanya mampu merancang, tetapi tuhan lah penentu segala-galanya..aku harap aku dan kwn2 sentiasa tabah menerima dugaan ini.
Ya Allah ya tuhanku, kau selamatkanlah Zamiran ini..KAU CUCURILAH RAHMATMU KEATASNYA..KAU AMPUNKANLAH DOSA-DOSANYA..SESUNGGUHNYA ENGKAU LAH TUHAN YANG MAHA ADIL..KASIHANILAH HAMBA MU ITU..KAU MASUKKANLAH ARWAH KE DALAM SYURGA MU YA ALLAH.amin..

a road to destiny

2010-01-30T05:24:00.000-08:00

when the rain refused to fall down..
when the sun no more gives us light..
when the moon dissapear..
when the stars are no longer in the sky..

u got nowhere else to go..
u keep praying for ur right destiny..
u search for the real meaning of life..
time to time evrything is going to change..

u will lose ur real identity..
u will lost ur track..
all the happiness will be the sweetest moment in ur life..
and eventually its gone..

the wind flow right to ur face..
to give u life for every breathe u take..
feeel the pain inside..
its killing u slowly..

now is the time..
dont wait..
the road is already there..
it is on u to choose ur own way..
it is on u to choose ur own destiny....

ikan haruan

2010-01-30T05:09:00.000-08:00

esk da nk balik kl...skejap gila cuti smggu..
mcm sehari je..pastu nt start la klas balik..stdy balik..kuiz balik..
masih bnd sama mcm 3taun lps..xde perubahan..
bgn pg pegi klas balik klas mkn maen ptg pastu tdo..
life yg bosan..bosan gila nk mampos..
kalo ada dunia yg lg aman, aku nk pegi idop kt sane ah..
cr bnd baru utk dibuat..dunia skrg x abes2 blaja blaja blaja pastu cr keje pastu keje n keje n keje..
mentaliti zaman skrg..adoi..xde bnd baru ke..smpai bila nk mcm ni..smpai bila nk tgk org muda kaya..orang muda yang kaya skrg pon byk jual bnd haram..
jual dadah..aku rasa cm x berbaloi blaja 5taun mcm nk gila tp kuar dgn gaji sribu lebeh..
nk bli keter ngn umh? simpan duit utk kawen? simpan dlm mimpi?
nk byr utang pinjaman lg?
x logik la skrg nie..nt myk makin naek..brg pon naek..taraf idop makin tggi..
tp gaji x brubah..lg ramai org brutang, lagi ramai org pnjam ahlong..
smpai bila nk mcm ni? aku stress la bila pikir bnd x berbaloi cmni..
terasa diri bodoh menjadi hamba buku..belajar bnd yg x akan diguna time keje adalah satu pembaziran masa..yela ilmu tu kne belajar..tp kalo nk sgt lps blaja keje, blaja yg pnting2 dh laa..
mls mls mls..
mcm da xde erti hidop yg sebenar skrg..pikir la balik kita hidop utk apa sebenarnya??

getah dan plastik

2010-01-26T03:54:00.000-08:00

apabila mulut sudah letih berkata2..
apabila anggota sudah letih untuk berkelakuan..
apabila mata sudah penat utk melihat..
apabila telinga sudah bosan utk mendengar..
apabila sudah hilang kepandaian..
apabila kehilangan skills..
apibla tidak mampu berbuat apa..
apa yang anda lakukan?
duduk sahaja..hanya otak memikirkan bilakah masa itu akan datang..

hilang bosan,
hilang sepi,
hilang sunyi,

membina senyuman,
membina kebahagiaan,
membina keyakinan,
membina diri,

rindu bersama.bila?? xtaw.. bila? tunggu..bila? soalan dan soalan dan soalan..

!__!

2010-01-22T10:30:00.000-08:00

u treated me like a playgorund..
u come and go whenever u want..
u play wutever u like..
u do wutever u want..
but..
i never complained..
i always give u my best..
but it looks like u never appreciate me..
im waiting and waiting and waiting..
and still...keep waiting..
but nothing is happening..
u left me with ur empty promises..
sometimes,
i feel like running away from u..
never want to see ur face again..
but im going nowhere..
im just a playground in a small village..
and i already...
lost in my own track..
drowned by ur sweet words..

i wish i could come back..
to be the real ME again..

priceless

2010-01-18T09:19:00.000-08:00

priceless moment in ur life..
i cant remember which one was mine..
for me, every breathe is the priceless moment in my life..
thank god for giving me the opputurnity to live in this world..
lately, there are loads of things in my mind..im not really good in expressing all of it into words..
so the easy way to let it go is by listening to my music..ngehehe..
now its hard to keep smiling when u feel not very good..
i need a peaceful time..
i need a peaceful moment..feel like going somewhere..to relax..
i miss having the fresh air in the morning..
i miss having breakfast..hehe..
kenapa kadang2 kita perlu berpura2..x suke lah..
skrg tibe2 mcm rajin update blog..sbb trase mcm berckp dgn blog..
kwn2 duk bercakap dgn game..baguslah..ade jgk kwn duk berckp dgn lab report..
aku da merapu..haha
ciao ah

apabila kacang dua butir.

2010-01-17T11:50:00.000-08:00

macam mana kalau kita bwk tong kosong jln2 ke sana dan kemari?
rasa x guna kan? eehhehe..mlm ni aku bosan ahh..aku xleh tdo..aku xtaw nk bwat apa..aku rasa kosong..aku rasa panas..aku rasa mcm2..celaru..bak kata bdk indie menyampah, jiwa kosong abah kau..terasa mcm nk maki hamun org pon ada..suka ati la nk ckp most of my post ni byk emo..tp aku post blog time aku emo je kot most of the time..da staun aku menyendiri.. tgk wayang sorang2, mkn sorang2, lepak sorang2..kalau kt kl laa...dan byk gila benda aku blajar sepanjang aku menyendiri..byk mistake yg aku da bwat zaman mula2 dulu..dan byk jgk aku pelajari setelah memerhati byk bnd di dunia nih..skrg aku rasa aku lebih matang..aku rasa aku lebih berfikir..aku rasa lebih luas..tp tu lahh..masih lg menyendiri..aku pon xtaw ape yg aku cr sbenarnye skrg..tiap2 mlm aku cuba pikir ape yg aku nk skrg, ape yg aku perlu bwat..tp semua berakhir dgn aku tido dan x abis..tiada noktah..kdg2 aku rase sgt2 bosan keseorangan cmni..aku xtaw nk bwat apa..kdg2 aku pegi jln2 sorg2 mlm2 buta..xtaw pon nk pegi mana..tp bler da puas, aku blk ke kolej smula..umur da 21..tp objektif idop masih kabur..hala tuju masih mencari..byk lagi yg aku perlu belajar..tp mcm mana nk cr pengalaman..semakin hari aku semakin takot utk mencuba bnd baru..kdg2 aku rasa aku ni loserrrrrr....yea mmg btol kdg2 aku loser..aku seorang yg ssh nk kata 'no'...msalah yg agak besar dlm idop aku.,.sume jwpn yes..biarpon menyusahkan aku akhirnya..aku kdg2 rasa jgk nk idop mcm org laen..bahagia berdua2an..tp tu lahh..mcm mana nk cr pon aku da ilang skill..da keluar litar...aku suka sgt kereta..mmg puas bila dpt buat, tgk dan rasa keter tu..tp masih ada benda yg belum lengkap..keter aku aku naek sorang2..tgk seat sbelah salu je xde org..salu berckp ngn radio, karoke dlm keter..kacau penjaga tol sbb da xtaw nk kcau sapa..bunyinya mcm aku xde kwn..aku ade je ramai kwn..tp kdg2 rsa mcm diorg xde..sbb masing2 pon bz ngn hal masing2..aku byk habiskan masa tgk desktop..tgk facebook yg hampir menjadi bosan kadang kala..aku pon byk abiskan masa kt tdo..tp bler bgn masih lg rutin sama..kalo nk ckp pasl msalah nk ngorat ppuan, msalah nk berpasangan..aku da leteh.. da hari2 pikir tp xde noktah...xde penghujung..org ckp aku ada rupa, ada keter, sng je bro ko nk cr awekk..dlm hati aku, kepala butoh pak hang...adakah sbb sikap x crius aku ni ppuan salu igt aku maen2?? kalo aku crius diorg ckp aku moddy laa ape laaa..kalo x crius diorg ckp aku maen2..so mana satu? adoiiii...bler duk sorg2, mcm2 bnd la aku duk pikir..angan2 bkn maen lg..tp sume angan2 aku x pernah menjadi..mcm aku angan2 stret A spm..x dpt pon..huhu..angan2 dpt fullmark..tp dpt half je..ye la.korang mst ckp..alaaaaaa, xkn boring kot...xkn sorg2 kot..family kn ada...kwn kn ada....amboi,,, ckp sng laaaa..laen org laen rasa..bulu je sama itam..rambut lain2..bosan laaaaa...nk bwat bnd baru, nk g pulau, nk g travel..tp xkn nk g sorg2..mmg sesat ahh..mmg berkawan ngn bangunan ah cmtu..luahan perasaan da mcm x se special dulu da..mcm semua org skrg da bwat bnd sama..aku nk mencari kelainan tp x jmpe..so aku pon same ngn org laen..aku igt nk mencari bnd bru r..aku rsa mcm nk start balik je sume bnd yg aku pnh bwat dulu..byk sgt bnd aku membazir di zaman remaja nih...samada positif ngn negatif, sama je sume..knape eh manusia sentiasa x puas dgn apa yg ada? bodoh la manusia nih..baek jd alien..tiap2 masa masuk tv..org bwat filem..pdahal x wujud pon..aku peduli taik ape org nk ckp pasl aku..ni diri aku..suke ati aku r...aku suke gembirakan org tp sebaliknya aku x gembira pon? knape eh? aku pernah dpt soalan bagus gila..tp aku sia2 kn dgn jwpn bodoh..akhirnya aku rase bodoh..bodoh btol laaaa...tdo lu..nyte

lagu zaman asrama T_T

2010-01-16T05:02:00.000-08:00

jgn tgk video nye..dgr lagu je..lagu ni hari2 dgr zaman skola mase f5 dulu..sdeh gler kot..huhu

lagu ni pon best..pdulikan vdeonyaaa...xde kne mengena..dgr lagu je..huhu..
haihhh..rndu lak zaman skola...

best question

2010-01-16T04:17:00.000-08:00

who am i to u???

QA

2010-01-13T05:19:00.000-08:00

hye.. i got a test tomorrow..and my preparation is not very good..i dun have the mood to study..
i think i can handle it..InsyaAllah..pray for me keyh..

there are a few questions i would like to ask my readers(if theres any lah)..hihi

1- is it so important for us to have a partner..i mean the special one..??
2- wut is the main purpose of being together?
3- wut is the best way to keep the relationship maintained like the first day of u being together?
4-wut is ur opinion for a single guy/gurl?
5- why many dont believe in love at d first sight?
6- how to find the one?
7- how do u noe that ur partner is ur real soulmate?
8- how do u feel when someone u love is not with u??
9- why do we feel the loneliness?
10- how to get rid of stupid feelings that wont go away?
11- how do u notice when someone likes u?
12- why do we keep judging people only by the appearence?

ok lahh..actually there are more questions that i want to ask but im not sure if someone will answer all of this and im not sure i have readers or not..lol.

welcome2010

2010-01-10T21:18:00.000-08:00

i think its not too late for me to wish u guys a happy new year..
new year, new age, new spirit and evrything is new in our soul..
so this year makes me a 21 years old guy...shittt..da makin tua..huhu
time is moving so fast nowadays..rasa mcm 2001 br je taun lps..
but its already 9years ago..terasa mcm baru je masuk skola menengah, tp rupanya da scnd year kt U..terasa berat badan still 62kg tp skrg da 70+..
evrything has changed...u are not the same as u were before..
stop acting like a kid and behave like an adult..hehe..

it has been so long since the last update for my blog..
i have no mood to keep updating cuz i got nothing much to say..
evrytime i wanted to update, i keep deleting it..
and now im currently addicted to on of the dream theatre's song- ministry of lost soul..
try la dgr..best2..hihi..
yesterday was my first test for this sem and im really glad test tu kacang glerrr..
haha..boleh la first test kn..bak datang r khamis ni satu lg test..ssh skit kot..

i hope this year will always be better than the previous year..
more mature, rajin std lg, and all..and not to forget, akhirat pny tugasan...hehe.

k la..will update soon..
tkecre guys..XOXO

i love 2009

2009-12-26T06:12:00.000-08:00

damn i love this year...
too much bitter n sweet memories in this year..
too much things happened and changed my life a bit..
ive been single almost a year since 25/1..
haihhhh..feel so sad..

(T_T)
nyte all

tired

2009-12-19T05:52:00.000-08:00

abis jgk uniten 4 on 4 volleyball tournament selepas 2 hari berlansung..

segalanya berjalan lancar except for the first day, ptg tu ujan so we have to pospone the game to the next day..my team got the 1st runner up which is the silver medalist.. haiyaaa..

i was very exhausted mase final game tuh..grrrr...makin berisi badan pon berat..haiyyaaa...

nasib baek la teammate lain ok..tp x mampu utk lwn dgn team all star yg power jgk lah..huhu..

syukur la dpt no 2..x sia2 bgn awl pg buta..ahahha..

tu je yg nk update..more later..hihi..

tata

astalavista

2009-12-07T10:56:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum n selamat sejahtera..
a very long silence..its not dat i dun have time to blogging..
i just dun hv any idea wut to write and wut to tell..
life is a bit messy for me right now..
there are so much things happened to me..
and its very pvt..
im starting my new sem tomorrow...
i feel like i was born again..
maybe its bcuz of certain reason..
i made loads of mistakes for my previous sem..
i think i have to tebus balik all of it this sem..
i have to perform very well...
i noe i can do it..but i just have to buang malas!
i have to! hurmmmm...
k lah..wish me luck for this sem...
nyte2

damn

2009-11-17T08:08:00.000-08:00

i feel sucks..
this is the first time i feel like this after 9months..
haihh..why shit is always happen to me?
why eh...i feel so bad....
u come n gv me lights and leave me without a word..
im speechless..i really dunnoe wut to do..
wut should i do? tell me plzz...
argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
im depressed.....
fuck.

homie

2009-11-08T08:12:00.000-08:00

im home..br smpai..
bengang hari ni..hood dpn crack..anak haram mane la yg bwat.
hurmm..

poppysmic

2009-11-03T23:09:00.000-08:00

akhirnyaaaaaa...final is over!!! yay!!!
stelah 2mggu bersusah payah mengharunginyaaa..
saye berjaya melengkapkan final ini dengan puas hati..
xde la mcm sem2 lps..pegi final tp xtaw ape pon..kali ni ok laaa....
cuma paper circuit analysis..blurr..jln kira btol kot tp jwpn mst salah.
everytime bwat latihan pon cmtu..
hrp2 result kuar akhir bln ni boleh membina senyuman di muka saya..
amin...tp xde plan pon utk cuti sem ni..
duk umh je la kot..huhu.
nk enjoy pon xtaw ke mana..

kepada yg tgh final lg tuh..gudluck lahh..
jwb leklok..

kalakutta hey yo heyy..

2009-10-29T04:01:00.000-07:00

just finished 3papers for final xams..
2more to go..the first 3paper were quite ok la for me..
ade yg bleh bwat ade yg x boleh..mcm biase la..
but im really scared of the next paper which is on 31hb..
dynamics..omg its fucking hard for me..every subtopic got their own formulas..
how am i suppose to memorise all of it in a day..hashhh..carry mark pon xtaw..
hint pon x bg..im hoping im still here next sem and finish my degree here..
changing college is a waste of time..i should focus more n more n more..
stop playing around like a kid..im 20 now and i should realise it..
xtualy i miss my hometown..feel like going back today but i cant..
sane byk pilihan mknn la..cni da xtaw nk mkn ape..x abis2 ngn nasi goreng..
i miss my mum's cooking..i miss nasi lemak lorong, i miss kedai nyamuk, i miss beriani dollah and many more..haihhh..

this is fucking good news for me

2009-10-23T14:04:00.000-07:00

im not even ready for my finals...
har har har..im too lazy too study..
i dunnoe wuts going on with my lifestyle..
im addicted to smthng not even important for me..
haihhhh..ive tried to avoid it but i cant..bodoh la..focus la!
if i fail this sem, im not going to be in this college anymore next year..
haihhh...i always wanna sleep..
and when i sleep, its hard for me to wake up...
wuts wrong with my life fuckerrrrrrrr....
i need smthng new..smthng fresh..
where to find eh?
engineering is bullshit..evreything is bullshit lately..
hampeh btol la study neh...blaja bnd x logik...xnmpk haram..
aku nmpk kertas ngn dakwat..guddddd..... that is wut engineer suppose to noe..
go onnn..keep on ur damn fucking lifestyle..and u will succed..
succeed to faill fuckahh..
mcm haram nk faham subjek...

fuck study!! fuck u n u n u n u.....

gone

2009-10-22T12:39:00.000-07:00

lame x dgr lagu nih..tber2 ade dlm list music td..best jgk..hehehehhehe =)

enjoy la lyrics die..nk dgr tgk utube laaa..mls!

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

Yeeaah....

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone

Ohhh...

Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..

But the truth remains
You're....

nyte2

volley

2009-10-16T09:18:00.000-07:00

hye there..how r u?
hope u are in good condition and so on..huhu..
xtualy i dunnoe wut to write..so im going to tell u wut am i going to do this weekend..
sabtu n ahad im going to UM..
i got volleyball comp..so weekend abis cmtu je..da la kne bgn awl -.-"
huhu..final da dkat sgt..byk gler babi lg yg blm cover...
adehhh..bertahankah aku??
dkat2 final ni tbe2 ade sorg lect ni suh berniaga...wtf???
org nk std la..die nk suh bazirkan masa cmtu je..kalo x berniaga, fail subjek tu..
hurmmm..mmg insane la die tu..so life is very hectic la lately..got so many things to do..
sume asaimen nk kne anta mase ni..quiz pon..test pon..
skrg da std week.so tggl mase nk final je..std pon mls..huhu..

k la..kne tdo awl..
esk kol 7 da nk kne kumpul....tata
nyte

OD

2009-10-10T01:54:00.000-07:00

last night was the most crazy nite for me..
vomit n collapse..maybe its bcuz of long time no shisha..
i went to andalus at jalan damai KL nk shisha2 after manufact processes xam..
at 12.30 am we reached there..i ordered 2bottles of shisha and my fren one bottle..
sedut asap mcm jin..tbe2 sangap shisha kn..for 2hours, i feel so dizzy cuz isap nonstop!
then bermulalah adegan...kluar je dr andalus, muntah skit..da xleh jln..haha
smpai simpang nk masuk mainroad, muntah lagi...cr 7e, last2 g kampung baru, muntah lagi..pengsan jap kt ctu..haha..then decide nk blk la..da xtahan..kepala mcm nk pecah..
otw back to uniten, muntah lagi 2kali kt highway..tgk2 ade roadblock lak..polis tgk muke merah cmtu konpem igt aku amek brg terlarang..pastu belakon la bwat2 tdo..hehe..lakonan menjadi..
balik uniten muntah skali lagi dan trus collapse...sedar2 da pagi..trok gler mabuk shisha nih..
kepada kwn2, jgn cuba isap 3botol shisha nonstop selama 2jam..anda akan mabuk juga nanti..hehe..

hot and cold working

2009-10-08T11:55:00.000-07:00

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BOSAN!! -.-"

for u and for me

2009-10-02T03:44:00.000-07:00

Hold up... hold on... don't be scared

You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared

Your destiny may keep you warm.

Cos all of the stars are fading away

Just try not to worry you'll see them some day

Take what you need and be on your way

And stop crying your heart out

Get up... Come on... why you scared

You'll never change what been and gone

harmonykah?

2009-10-01T23:17:00.000-07:00

dikala mulut bisu untuk berkata,
mata buta untuk melihat,
telinga pekak untuk mendengar,
hati mati untuk merasa,
otak buntu untuk berfikir,
kaki dan tangan kaku untuk bergerak,
tapi,
hanya mata hati mampu untuk melihat......
maka diri hanya akan tersenyum,
untuk apa sekalipun yg terjadi,.
sedeh x kemana,
senyum penawar hati..
pejamkan mata,
lihatlah dengan perasaan...

hectic

2009-10-01T07:04:00.000-07:00

hye guys..long time no update.i was very busy with quizzes and assignments after raya..
we all have to submit it in the first week after raya..haihh..so now i steal a lil bit time to blog blog..
hehe..rite now im listening to kitaro(MIRAGE)... a very nice song...i like it damn much..
so ive finished most of the assignment and quizzes, only have to prepare for test next week.. scnd test for dynamics and manufacturing process.. finals are just around the corner but im not yet doing any preparation for it...haihhh..too much things to be covered for the finals..i hope im still survive in this college next sem..this worried me a lot..i mean a lot!
i have difficulties in understanding a few subjects..thats the only problem for me here..i think evryone else has the same prob as me..today i got 2 quiz and im glad i can do it well..kudos for me..ngee :D
tanpa disedari, duit raya pon da abes dibelanja ntah pape..i dont have idea where did i spent it..
every year is always like this..duit byk, nk mkn sdp laaaa...apa daaaa....

k la..
tu je nk cter..hehe
daaa~

letih tapi best

2009-09-25T11:58:00.000-07:00

hello hello hello.....ngeeee....
raya taun ni mmg penat..smpai kn raya keenam pon x abes lg duk beraya..
rumah saya da jd port lepak smpai ke pg..meriah la ngn kawan2..
mase cuti ni je la nk jmpe diorg kn..masing2 da blaja jauh2..so mmg ssh nk jmpe..
so cuti2 cmni la nk kumpulkan balik semua kawan2 yang ada..cuma kami kekurangan seorang gergasi yang juga kawan baik saya yang keika ini die sedang berkerja di atas paltform tgh2 laut..sian die..raya ke-8 baru die turun..so x raya mane la die..tiap2 mlm la kitorang akan lepak smpai pagi..tgk muvie la..lepak2 la..borak2..haihhh..salu mengharapkan cuti panjang2..biar sume org boleh berkumpul...tp tu la kannnnn..taun ni pon ade jgk pegi braya kt umh org yg saye x pnh pgi..kwn2 ajk kn..biase la..ade yg da ade awek baru..so pegi la rumah diorg..layan kn ajee..hehe..
raya kalini saye mkn semua kuih yang ada chocolate :) hanya makan satu dua keping je yg xde coklat..sbb x best..sate n ketupat adalah bnda wajib..raya ke dua nasi dagang..pergghhh..xtaw la byk mane saye mkn smpai da buncit neh..naseb bek sume baju raya muat lg..
arini ari sabtu da..ahad da nk blk sane..oh i hate it! balik sane dan melakukan rutin yg same hari2..bosan kn?? da la finals sbulan lagi..saiamen pon byk..ade jgk la yg dlm progres nk buat neh..oh essay..pening kepala nk reka ayat..tp crius r..raya kali ni agak best laa.mula2 cm x best je kn sbb suasana bulan pose tu da cm x best sgt..ni da hari2 bejalan x henti2..buat rumah cm hotel..balik utk mandi n tdo je..haha..da kne sound da td -.-"
jap g kol 9pg group skola kitorang ade bwat bbq kt pntai marina kot..
hrp2 bgn laaa..kalo x rigu laaa...adoi..
k la..nk tdo dulu..daaaa

selamat hari raya!

2009-09-19T00:09:00.000-07:00

hari da last day puasa..and evryone is busy doing preparation for hari raya including my family..
bersih rumah, hias rumah, masak rendang and bermacam2 lagi..ade juga yg br nk btolak balik kampung..pandu cermat jiwa selamat..xtualy i got loads of things to do, help my papa to sort some stuff,mop, menyapu, beli air..haha..tp kt cni jgk syae..berblogging2 sket..
Alhamdulillah la tahun ni saye berjaya puasa penoh..walopon byk dugaan yg berlaku. tapi hati cekal saye ni mampu lg menolak segala ancaman2 nasi bungkus,mcd, air dan mcm2 lg..haha..
sdeh jgk la kn ramadhan da nk meninggalkan kita..sesungguhnya bulan ini sgt best..nikmat die laen mcm..nikmat berbuka, nikmat sahur, nikmat tdo dan mcm2 lah..x akan same ngn bulan2 laen.. di bulan ni, kita ada semayang terawih yg xde kt bulan lain..dlm bulan ni kita ada bazar ramadhan yg menjual berbagai2 jenis mknn, xde jgk kt bulan lain..dlm bulan ni juga kita bgn bersahur beramai2, bukan pose beramai2, sgt best..mcm2 kenangan lah..dlm bln ni pon kita shoping raya kn..mane x bestnye..lg2 ppuan..hehe..saye agak sdeh la bln ni da nk pergi kn..da la staun skali..harap bebenor la ramadhan tahun dpn lagi menggembirakan..dlm kesedihan saye ni,
saye pon gembira jgk la..syawal bakal menjelma..esk da raya..
saye mcm x caye lak..kejap gler mase berlalu kn..aritu kt uniten lagi duk pose..skrg da kt umh tgh bersiap2..blm raya lgi da dpt duit raya..hahaha..tnx la kepada pemberi2..mama n kakak2 tgh duk bz kemas2 rumah, hias tu la, ni laaa...bz la..adik lari dr nk buat keje, pgy basuh keter la kononnya..huhu..aku pon ape kurangnye..tgh duk on9 kot..heheh..jap g mandi lah, pastu start buat kerje..

k la..kepada semua, selamat menyambut hari raya aidilfitri!!
ku pohon segala maaf di atas segala salah dan silap yg sentiasa dibuat ni..
mulut cabul, mata jahat, tgn dan kaki nakal, telinga degil..haihhh..x pernah boleh lari dr semua tu kn..manusia biasa..so diharap segala salah dan silap ku dimaafkan oleh rakan2 semua..
semoga bergembira la di hari raya yg staun skali ni..pulun mkn abis2..biar la gemok..nt diet balik..dan jage diri masing2 yer..semoga syawal kali ini memberi seribu kenikmatan kepada anda semua..InsyaAllah....

why

2009-09-16T10:02:00.000-07:00

plz answer me..why? ive done wut i have to do..
i follow the way that i have to...but why still the same?
why is it soo hard for me? am i so stupid or wut?
or im not at the right track? or theres something very wrong with me?
or i should do something else? or its not suitable for me?
why?? i dont have any idea wut do i have to do to be like evryone else..
they just did the same thing as me..but why they are not like me?
why? i just dont understand..i juz want the right answer that can xplain all my question..
but till now i still dont get it..why? is it from my own mistake?
why?

oh God..plz show me the right way..the way that can answer all my questions..
the way that can lead me to be the best..the way that can make my family proud of me..
the way that can change me..the way that i really2 need..the way to success..
plz show me to it..i noe there are ups n downs to all human kind..but plz not at this time...
plzz..i beg U...am i too mean?? am i too full with sin? oh my God....
im stuck here and i dunnoe wut am i supposed to do...im stress..im depressed..
oh my God..
why..................

backo

2009-08-27T08:56:00.000-07:00

im going back to my lovely hometown tomorrow!!! yay!!
miss to be at home damn2 much..puasa kt rumah sgt2 la best..
mcm2 mknn kampong ade..maybe after jumaat prayer i will bertolak from my home here with my parents..planning to break fast at kuantan..
i think most of my fren are at their home due to cuti merdeka..
lagi ramai lagi meriah...dulu time kecik2 we were bad boys..
tiap2 mlm di bulan pose akan baling mercun kt rumah org..da menjadi rutin seharian..
then kne kejar ngn tuan rumah..lari ramai2..ade satu part, kitorg kne kejar ngn stick hockey la,baling mercun smpai pecah cermin keter org,ade kwn smpai kne langgr...naseb bek xde pape..hahahahaha!!! it was really2 fun..lepaking till sahur..ptg went to bazar and bli mcm2 mknn..i want ayam golek plzzz!!!! nk bli kt cni mahal..student kn..haha..
i want melawati kebab..kueh skaya!! pergghh..favourite one..hrp2 ade la....plz plz plzzzz...
duk kt cni blm pergi lagi bazar cuz at 5pm, traffic giler2 jam..xkn nk pergi pkul 4..too early..nt org igt x pose..haha..mknn pon da x best..damn! i miss zaman kanak2..
now evryone is grown up..no more maen kejar2, baling mercun, etc etc..
some of us are already working, must be tired on weekdays..cannot lepak till dawn..
tp xpe..asl boleh lepak sudah..argghhh!! x sbr nk blk!!!
stakat ni pose penoh lagi..Alhamdulillah..

ermm..one more thing..its about our independent day..why this year i dont feel like this is the independent month? kalo dulu mase kecik2, dtarting from 1st august, mcm2 aktiviti da bleh tgk kt tv..tp skrg, we only celebrate it on 31 august..what the hell man..why?? amne pergi sume semangat2 dulu?? is it bcuz of saye da lame x tgk tv? xtaw isu semasa..tp imposible la..or is it bcuz oh H1N1? haihhh..come on come on..ber patriotik laaa..bukan selalu..we should proud of our own country..there are still mane countrys yang x merdeka..yang berperang pon ade lagi.. we should bersyukur..malaysia aman, damai..bencana alam pon xde..sian kt org2 lame yang berjuang dulu..semangat sket keyh! hehe..

to all, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN YANG KE 52 TAHUN!!!

just a fren

2009-08-25T06:48:00.000-07:00

oh God..i miss her a lot..criusly..
i miss talking to her, hang out with her,lepaking with her and so on..
i really2 miss dat moment..i mean it..
how i wish i can turn evrything to be a happy moment for me now?
God plz lead me..show me the way..
im just ur slave..i got nothing without u..
i wanna be with her..but it seems like i have to get move on..
i can feel that she is happier with me out of her picture..
for real, i'd have never seen anything so perfect before i met her..
damn..
i dedicate this song to her..
may u listen to this..
sincerely from me..
enjoy it beautiful lady..

puasa!

2009-08-22T12:21:00.000-07:00

fuhh..sehari puasa telah berlalu dengan baik sekali..
saya gembira kerana berjaya menahan lapar..hehe..
dan saya berharap tahun ini saya akan berpuasa penuh seperti yang diwajibkan..
puasa tadi x penat sgt pon sbb bgn2 tggl lagi 4jam utk berbuka..lol :D
lpstu lepak kt rumah je xde buat pape..online tp internet tiba2 bertuka jd siput malas..
mandi2 pastu bersiap nk g bkk puasa dkat PJ..satu family dkat sane..mkn smpai kol 10 mlm smpai da x larat nk jln..pergghhh..mcm2 mknn ade..smpai leteh prot nih nk proses mknan..
saya juga mampu menghasilkan banyak hasil2 nyahtinja..haha
tp bulan puasa kali ni x rse sgt mcm nk puasa mase kecik2 dulu..dan raya pon da rase mcm tu..adekah disebabkan kurang nye mendapat duit raya kerana faktor peningkatan usia??
come on la..br 20 kot..spatutnya lagi tua lg byk dpt sbb perbelanjaan pon meningkat..hehe.sekarang pkul 3.30 pg so tggu mase nk sahur..mls ah nk tdo..perot pon mcm ade saket sket..da lame tp x baek2.apesal eh??
ermm..esk nk kuar jln2 ngn my bro and my dad..g klcc kot..xtaw r nk bwtpe..diorg suh shoping raya tp........mcm awl sgt je...xpe..esk tgk2 n survey2 dulu lah..mane yg suka suki...
ngeee :D

k la..kepada semua..SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL MUBARAK..x kira lelaki ke ppuan, jgn lupa puasa penoh..jgn tggl..xbaek ponteng..hehe..

k..nyte2 ;)

oh my God

2009-08-20T03:25:00.000-07:00

theres no word can describe how do i feel rite now...
i just dont noe how to say it..it was a big mistake for me to choose this shitty course at the first place..
i should already alert with the difficulty of this course and i should noe that i wont be able to carry it..
i always try and try and try to show to everybody that i can do it..but somehow, it troubles me alot..i mean A LOT! my result is a way diff from my study..ive given all out but still no change..
im really2 tired..im really2 exhausted..i dunnoe wut should i do currently..this sem is my last chance to be in this university..if i dont perform well, i will be leaving this U..i dun want that..criusly..
why should i be like this..i was not like this a few years back..i was a smart student..i can perform well..i dun have any big probs..i always make my parents proud of me..i become one of the best student in school..i got scholarship..but now...it all turns out!! theres something wrong with me..argggghhhhhh..my God..plzzz help me..plzz tell me wut should i do..i feel like going away from this life..i want a new life..i want to start all of this from the beginning..i want to fix all the wrong thing that ive done..i want to be a good student, i want to be a gud son..
i already focus, i dun have any gangguan..my life almost perfect but, this is the only prob..studyyyyyyyy..fucking studyyyy....arggghhhh...im stress..im depress...
wtf am i doing here this is my third year in UNITEN..i dun want failure!!! plzzzzz.....
hurmm....
ciao~

happy birthday to me!!

2009-08-11T21:25:00.000-07:00

hehehehe..arini adalah ulang tahun hari kelahiran saya iaitu 12/8..
saya mendapat banyak ucapan daripada rakan2 sekalian..
samada melalui facebook, myspace dan handphone..
saya sangat menghargai segala ucapan yang telah diberikan oleh rakan2 sekalian..
tetapi terdapat juga kawan2 yang telah melupai tarikh lahir saya menyebabkan mereka terlupa untuk berucap..dan terdapat juga golongan yang mengendahkan sahaja birthday alert yang terdapat di facebook..xpe..saya paham..mungkin ada sebab yang seswai untuk anda bertindak sedemikian..mungkin saya patut menyedari sesuatu yang sepatutnya sudah lama saya sedari..
erm berkenaan dengan sambutan, ade sedikit sambutan, saya bangun tidur td, mama goreng cekodok..hahhaha..xde sambutan la..da tua kot..tp saya akan mintak jgk hadiah best2 dari diorang..tidak kira! haha..upacara baling telor pon da dilakukan oleh rakan mggu lepas..saye terkena awl sbb birthday saya time cuti..jadi sehelai baju saya telah mengalami kerosakan major...haha..hari inni mungking saya akan pulang ke kemaman..mengikuti ibu bapa..
ape yang saya sedari adalah, kwn baru lebih alert ye mengenai birthday ini..takpe..saye masih menunggu ucapan2 lagi dari kwn lama..sila jgn lupa kerana saya akan merajuk..touching2 sket :)

k la..kepada sesiapa yang x suka kt saya..saya memahami..sory la kalo ade salah n silap..kepada sesiapa yang saya pernah buat salah, sory laaaa....jgn emo2..buat muka ketat je bler jmpe...x lyn ke ape ke..kwn je kot.....jgn emo lbeh..

starting from today, i think i should get start to move on...no more old story, although its always in my mind and hardly to juz forget it, i'll try my best..try to put it out of my pic, forever maybe..hihi..now i think, i dont really appreciate people that dont really appreciate me..honestly speaking..wuts the purpose for me to be kind with dat kind of person? its a bullshit kot..
hahhahha...so maybe thi group of people will hear nothing bout me anymore..

k la...happy birthday to me!!!
sweet 20 akim!!!
haha

syukur2!

2009-08-10T01:56:00.000-07:00

syukur giler arini..sbb td pgy tropicana medical center..
sbb saye ade sedikit symptom influenza A..which is batuk, sakit tekak,dmam, diarrhea..
so td bwat la test utk sakit ni..tgu dlm sejam cmtu, dpt result..
syukur giler..saya disahkan negatif wabak ini..huhu
syukur2..

mine

2009-08-04T00:26:00.002-07:00

HEY HEY HEY....ape kabo???
saye disini sehat sahaja..esk ade test thermodynamics..mlm..da std sket2..hrp2 bleh jwb..bkn sng subject ni..td kuiz circuit, anta lmbt, die ckp x dpt markah anta lambat sbb lupe nk buat awl2..duk maen2..smlm g mkn nasi lemak antarabangsa..tbe2 tringin nk mkn..bapak jauh g mkn..bkn bapak aku la...aku ni..jap g ade klas kol 4, rilek2 lu..nk g anta lab report japg.. fuyoo..byk la kerja skrg nih..rase cm x duk diam..sbb tdo pon gerak2..
bln ni cm best je..sbb saye akan jadi tua staun..dlm masa beberapa hari je..kepada sesiapa yang igt boleh la wish..saye xnk btau tarikh..sndr mau igt..:P
kt fb ade, ms ade, fs xtaw sbb da lame x bkk..hehe..naseb baek bday time cuti, x kena la telur n tepung..hehe..mlm ni nk kenakan roomate sbb esk bday die..kami di bulan august ;)
saye mntk bday present kt ayh, nk jersey baru MU..die ckp ok..yay!!!!!
ehehe..da lame nk bli, tp x bli2 sbb duit abis kt bnd laen..bgs btol...da lame x cuci keter, smlm tergerak ati nk cuci, so keter pon da berkilat...otak je blm lg..makin lame mkin lambat..adoii.cmner la nk lajukan balik..mls sgt neh..2hari lepas pegi karoke kt redbox pavilion, kwn baek saya blanje..duk karoke smpai 5jam..dr 7pm smpai 12.30 mlm..haha..
nyanyi sgt la tuh..tp yg bestnye buffet die.mcm2 ada..da la sdp giler..nyanyi smbil mkn..hehe..
ari khamis ni igt nk g balik sane, plan nk nyanyi ngn bdk2 uniten lak..sempena bday la..sape2 nk join dtg la..i alu2 kan.tp masok byr sndr..haha..

k la..nk g klas lak..bye2..

thank god

2009-07-29T09:39:00.000-07:00

haluuuu..long time no blog blog..hehe
i want to thank god for giving me back my normal sleeping time..
i want to thank god for waking me up every morning with the splash of lights rite to my cute face.lol.i want to thank god for giving me the oppurtunity to breath,walk and so on..
have u guys thank god for all the things that u've got?
hehehe..im very syukur syukur bcuz i get back my normal sleeping time..
it has been almost 3 years i cant sleep early..
now i can easily go to class, wake up early and bla bla bla..huhu..
im happy with myself now..
class seems pretty hectic to me..on tuesday, i got class from 9am to 11pm..
but at 2pm to 5pm ada gap la..tp x ckup utk aritu..
i will be very tired on that day..fuhhh..blaja pny pasl..
ermmm about my volleyball,
i think i should get rest for a long time..my right hand is almost fully damage..
im really worry bout it but if i want to make the operation, it takes a very long time to recover, i have to go fisio and all that stuff, leceh la...so i decided to stop playing for......i dont know..
but for sure, a long time..abes la da x fit..
xtualy im kinda dissapointed with myself cuz lambat nk berubat..
hurmm..nk wat cmner...
enuf with dat...next week i got a test..thermodynamics.. evryone sais this subject is very hard..aku da cuak..haha..i need to be well prepared..tkot ahh..3chapters will be asked but im not sure how many quest will be given..hopefully i can perform well..ngee :D

i think my blog is getting boring n boring n boring..
im not sure how many readers i have here..
tp xpe la..blog je la..hehe..
maybe bcuz of none interesting story in this little space..
k la...
nyte2

weeehhooooo

2009-07-23T00:22:00.001-07:00

so many things to do this week..
dont have time to bloggin,facebooking, ym-ing.
i cant open my ym since the internet connection is so terrible..
skejap2 je bleh bkk..adoyai..
hurm..i really2 miss my hometown..feel like going hokme..but i cant..
i got test on thermo and circuit next 2 week..
i got quiz..i got training..i am a very busy man now..
cant wait for the holidays to come..faster2!!!!!
i really wanna have a gud rest..

and FYI, i met doctor the other day, to ask about my injury..
my right hand..sometimes, it cant move..haha..
so the doctor said, i have to operate my elbow area to fix it..
OMG! wth..my tendon, muscle and ligamen almost fully damaged..
i went to mengurut da byk kali..but the tukang urut said xde pape pon..
so weird..if theres nothing, why is it hurt?? i cant hold heavy things..
i dont know wut am i supposed to do..
im sick of operation..GOD plz help me..

k la..gtg now..i got class..hehe..
more later..daaaaaa~~